When God wants something done, he makes it happen!
It seems like it was just yesterday that I was wondering where I should be in life and if I am behind at the age of 22. I wondered if I should have graduated from college and have been engaged to be married by now, or if I should already be working on my masters, or working in some huge corporate office somewhere in the city (ok that one only crossed my mind for a very brief moment). But I was feeling pretty lost, and considering it had been a while since I had paid any attention to where God wanted me to be, I was beginning to lose excitement for being involved in any ministry at all.
After fighting with myself about everything that a girl can think of, I finally came to the conclusion that I think too much. So in the middle of a break up and stress from my final semester in college (at least for my undergraduate studies)and a whole lot of procrastination (makes for a horrible mixture, by the way)I realized that God had been calling me for a while, but I had convinced myself that I was just "too busy", when in reality, I had only become too selfish with my time.
So a few weeks later I heard about The World Race, I decided I really didnt want to do the whole grad school thing yet,and I felt that I owed a lot of time and energy to God. I felt that he had been tugging at my heart to let go of a lot of things that distracted me from devoting my heart fully to him. I am so thankful for this epiphany, because shortly after I made my commitment to serve Him on the race, He took charge. and opened every door necessary for me to have this opportunity.
He never ceases to amaze me!
OH! another thing I just LOVE about Jesus..
I always have a song playing in my head, you know, background music for my thoughts..and I am convinced that Jesus has taken over my playlist. Its as if the right song for the moment (which makes my life so much more dramatic in my head)is always playing.. but every time I think about my journey these last few months, and how He has brought me here today, the song "Unashamed Love" begins to play in my head! It reminds me that no matter how stressful school or work or trying to "figure things out" may be.. He as called me, and I will forever serve Him, no matter what it takes, because He is worthy.
UNASHAMED LOVE LYRICS:
Jason Morant
You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day
To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place
Worthy, You are worthy
I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours
I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth
Worthy, You are worthy
Of a childlike faith and of my honest praise
And of my unashamed love
Of a holy life and of my sacrifice
And of my unashamed love
