Dear Mattai,

You don't know me but I know you.
I've known you before you existed, before you were ever in your mothers womb. 
I've watched you grow, I've watched you fall and scrape your knees.

I've watched you make mistakes.
I've watched you walk through good and bad times.
I've watched you fail and succeed.
I've seen you fall in love and have your heart broken. 

I've watched you suffer and cry, hidden in your room.
I've watched you search high and low
for something to fulfill the desire that you have to give your heart away to something or someone.

I've been here all along.
Watching waiting, patiently hoping that someday you'd see me
through the thick smoke and dust that has consumed you for so long,
that my arms are stretched out for you.

I want nothing more from you than your heart.
Than to be the one to fulfill this desire that you so greatly have.
I know son, that life gets hard.
That your human instincts make you impatient, stubborn
and make you think that you know what's best or that you deserve better than what I have for you. 

The truth is though, that only I can give you patience to receive what I KNOW is best for you.
And my deepest desire is for you to have better than what you could ever imagine that you "deserve".

My heart breaks at the thought of all the pain you have been through,
and I am sorry that you have ever felt alone.
But understand that flesh will always fail you.
I on the otherhand will never leave you or forsake you. 

I am the Abba Father, Creator of the universe, Savior, & Messiah.
I love you with every fiber of my being. I ask you as my son.
As my child.
To hear and believe all that I have done for you.
All that I desire to do for you.

Remembering that my love NEVER fails, please.
Take my hand and trust me.
In the hardest of times trust me.
Rejoice in my name in the good times.
Just TRUST ME.