Have you ever experienced the beauty of God in your life? Have you ever wondered if God was trying to speak to you directly? If so, then you know what I’m about to tell you is real. And for those who haven’t, get ready to experience the real beauty of God.
My first month on the Race was not easy. To be completely honest I felt a lot of spiritual warfare and my relationship with the Lord was at an all-time low. Ironic, right? Here I am on an 11-month mission trip, and I felt so separated from God. Sure, I was physically “building the Kingdom,” but I wasn’t building my relationship with my creator on an intimate level. Everything around me seemed to be chaotic from sickness to depression, to anxiety, you name it I experienced it. It was though the enemy knew exactly where to hit me to make it hurt.
“Go, go, go, get out my life. No, no, no not tonight. I don’t have the energy.” I felt like month one would never end.
Luckily, I had some amazing leaders to put in perspective that I am in loved and created to be a light to those who are lost. I’m worthy of overcoming my weakness and replacing them with the truth. I knew what I had to do; I eventually had to face my demons head-on.
At our all squad Debrief in Boca Chica, I was able to experience deliverance and inner healing on some personal issues that I had buried so deep in my heart. With the help of our squad coaches, Toni and Kerry, I became to be at peace with my past. Finally, I became FREE! For the first time in my life, I began to walk with more confidence knowing that my story mattered to the King of Kings.
I matter! That’s right, I matter, and so do you!
At Launch in January, each member of my squad received a key.
Kingdom Keys is something that the World Race started doing this year on the field. For those who are unfamiliar with this concept it is mainly getting a key with a word on it, and once you feel that you have accomplished what this word stood for, it was your duty to give it to someone else. My first word was burn.
Yes, that’s right burn.
“What the heck does this even,” I thought. God eventually revealed to me that I must burn everything I feel about myself. Every lie, every doubt, every fear, I need to ask the Lord to burn them. You see, burning is a form a purification and God was commanding me to do so. I can say with joy that I was able to pass my key along to someone else. I am never looking back and never giving up on the plans that my Lord has in store for me.
After Debrief my entire squad of 42, headed to H.O.P.E Mountain Ministry in the Dominican Republic. Once I got to the ministry site, I was overwhelmed with the presence of God. It was so much different than what I had experienced in Haiti. I knew God was here waiting for me to spend some one-on-one time with Him.
As I was heading down to our shack, which is down the mountain, to see our sleeping arrangements for the month, I looked down, and in the mud, I spotted something that would shake me at my core. It was a new key. I quickly brushed the dirt off and saw the words humble.
Talk about God speaking! See I have experienced God speaking to me before, but this was the first time in the Race where He was talking directly to me. It amazing what God can do if we allow Him to come into our lives and transform us. So for my second month on the Race, I will be working on humbling my mind, body, and soul.
Prayer Request
Pray for my mind, body, and soul to be humbled.
Pray for strength to stay strong in times of weakness.
Pray for more intimacy with the Lord.
Pray for peace and contentment.
