I realized yesterday I thoroughly enjoy cleaning bathrooms-the fresh smell, the sparkling and smooth surfaces. Wow. A clean bathroom is the only way I feel like I can truly get myself clean. A spotless bathtub makes me want to bring my pillow/blanket in and snuggle up to read a book…anyone? Yeah, maybe that’s just me. Nothing like it.
I also really enjoy fast food. I really don’t care about the calories or whatever is the big deal about nutrition…rabbit food…turkey bacon…I don’t understand you people. It doesn’t matter who you are… there is nothing better than a Chick-fil-A biscuit…or a Big Mac (w/ cheese & lettuce only). Don’t even get me started on a #7 combo-chicken- with a soft taco supreme & Baja Blast from Taco Bell. You get the picture. WOWOWOW. Live Más. FYI. McDonalds/Taco Bell/Chick-fil-A would all be acceptable first dates.
I am utterly terrified of the dark. I sleep with my mouth open-my friends have pics to prove it. Jumping is my jam-on trampolines or into bodies of water. Not to mention, I lose mostly anything, but find almost everything.
I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I grow up. I’m not exactly sure where God is calling me next. I couldn’t even tell you what my life will look like six months from now.
But I do know what makes me come alive. I feel most myself when I acknowledge that I am fearfully and wonderfully made as an influencer and friend. I feel at home when submerged in the Word and I am surrounded by people who are fearlessly pursing the greater. I feel heard when my prayers are answered time and time again. I feel loved when I’m entrusted with the darkest parts of other’s story and God reminds me of His faithfulness throughout mine. I feel known when the still, small voice whispers, “just be.”
What if that’s what simplicity is? Not focusing solely on a purpose or plan, but thriving off what makes you come alive. What if the gateway to intimacy with the Lord is found within the passions that are already within? What if our ability to embrace who God has made us to be is simply rooted in being fully known and fully loved in who we are now?
This is me-wild and beautifully in process. I am more than aware that I have definitely not arrived. I keep praying that God would just mic drop my life plan, dreams and purpose in the form of a really cool rap song, but it hasn’t happened yet. This is the launching pad, not a finish line. I bring something completely unique and different to the kingdom, as do you. Knowing the gifts He has entrusted to you and walking in the authority He has given you, that’s it. So that’s what I’m choosing. I’m choosing to daily embrace the things that make me feel alive. I’m choosing to embrace the no make-up, messy hair, backpacker look. I’m choosing to embrace God working in the waiting.
Maybe life isn’t intended to be complicated after all. It’s not solely about finding a purpose through the twist and turns of life’s Rubix cube. It’s just walking. It’s learning each day more of who God is and learning to see yourself the way God sees you. It’s running towards the things that make you come to life and full heartedly pursuing the passions that lie within. It’s embracing who you are, so you can become all God created you to be.
Cheers to a eating a Big Mac while cuddled up in my bathtub waiting for God’s mixtape to drop. As I wait, I will not put my gifting and passions on hold. I have a long term kingdom calling, but for now I choose to respond daily to the needs of the kingdom.
Maybe just maybe you’re like me…a little hesitant to embrace the weird, quirky, and divinely appointed gifts Lord has given you. My challenge, for you and I, is to embrace.
“Trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainity. Enjoy the beauty of becoming. When nothing is certain, anything is possible.”
