want to get a little bit deeper in my life.
I Grew up in New york and i remember not much about it but i grew up with my parents sepretaed the whole time. Ican remember living with my dad and then back with my mom. i kinda felt like a yo yo. I grew up watching my mother struggle with an addiction of alchol. she allowed me to try it at the age of 8. Yes i got drunk at the age but that was the only time. Soon after my mom met her soon to be second husband they decided to pack up everything and move to Arknsas. Me my brother, mother and her soon to be second husband left without telling my father where we were going. I remember when he found out he was eneraged. he tryed to get custody but that did not happen. after my mom and this amn got married it was a pretty rocky 6 to 7 years in my life. i saw my mother struggle with alchol, i watched my stepfather abuse her physcial and emontail abuse. I was even abused. I can remember him punshing me for something i did not understand the meanning of what he was accusing me of. A neighbor girl told my mom and stepdad that i tried to rape her i was only 9 years old i did not even understand that word. I was made to sit with my knees on a crobar for at least an one hour and a half. I was so thankful when my mother wised up one day and got us out of there. I seen my mother change she stopped drinking and got a job and just really felt better. I remember having rocky teenage years I was just so emotionaly hurt that i felt like i could not trust anyone new to come into my life. i was a pretty rough teen. I would chase my brother with knifes and would acted out. When my mother met her 3 husband i would not talk to him at first because i could not trust anyone anymore i had enough. He actually was not that bad and he is still there till this day. I begin to straighten out and went of to college for a semester where i full begin to trust God. Today I can say I really feel like i trust the lord. My family kinda thinks i am crazy but i have been transformed by God.
