Ever since coming to know the Lord, I have dreamed about preaching around the world. I have cried out for millions to know Jesus personally and I have told the Lord that I will do anything for him. Would I really do anything for Him?
Over the past 7 months, I have been working for John & Lisa Bevere. This was a dream of mine when I first read John’s book ‘Fear of the Lord‘. I envisioned that I would get the anointing of the fear of the Lord and bring it to a generation. Did I see that my motives were completely selfish and focused on me creating my calling?
I have not regretted one minute of working for John & Lisa Bevere. They are both amazing and have a heart to serve the local church greater than I have seen in a long time. My time and season with Messenger International though has come to an end.
In less than two weeks, Erin, Joshua and I will be moving to Schererville, Indiana, 30 minutes outside of Chicago. I have to be real, I fought moving to Indiana with everything in me. I go back to my first question, would I really do anything for Him?
I have learned something through my walk with the Lord that I believe a generation has to grasp before we get anything that we have cried out for in our hearts. We must be broken for the Lord. There are millions of wild stallions, the best horses know to man waiting to run as fast as they can and as hard as they can. But, I feel God is saying that not even the finest of all the horses in all the world will be used unless they are broken.
I believe that God gives us all dreams deep in our hearts that He promises will come to pass. He gives us dreams so strong that we know they could only come from God yet we have no idea how they will become reality. I believe He then sends tests to prove if we have a yes in our hearts or rebellion, wanting our own way.
The Israelites were rebellious and wandered the desert till their death. God is taking some, even those reading this blog, in a direction that you might not understand. The reason could be to test your obedience. God is asking for a generation to obey His words and prove they have what it takes to follow the King.
I am on one of those journeys, I don’t quite understand but I know God has a plan. His ways are higher than my ways and I don’t want to fight what He is doing. I truly love my King and I want to follow Him for the rest of my life. I don’t just want to say with my mouth I will follow Him. I want my heart to scream, ‘YES, I will do anything’ even it is to serve without recognition for the rest of my life. Wow, that is hard to say. Can a generation really do it, can I really do it?
