What are you going to do with your future? What are you going to do about money? Where are you going to live? Why are you doing the things that you do?
So many things in the life of a Christian do not make since to a vast majority of the population including many believers. I didn’t know the answers to a lot of these questions, but what I did know is that I was right where I was supposed to be.
With a million things coming at me about my future, I knew that I had to get away. I felt the Lord tell me to go to Julian. My mother was very saddened when I told her that the second that I got home I had to leave again. She couldn’t quite understand it but I needed to retreat to complete silence with the Lord and I.
I thought to myself. I am a part of a Luke 10 generation so why not just get in the car and head to Julian and trust the Lord to direct me to where He wanted me to go. My father followed me to my car as I smiled and said, “See you in a couple of days”. I told him that I loved him and that I would indeed see him in a couple of days.
I hit the road and praised the Lord for this time away. I rolled into the beautiful mountains of Julian around 1:00pm on Thursday afternoon and said, “Lord, where do you want me to go.” I drove past a Methodist church on the way into town that pulled at my spirit but I felt to continue forward. I went through town and came to a crossroads when I thought maybe I should go back. I decided to try one more street that winded through the trees as I came around a corner to a sign that said Angels landing. I laughed and said, “Are You in this Lord”. I sat there and thought about the church but then I felt the Lord say that this is where they would direct me. 
I pulled into the 53 acre property as Theresa came out and smiled from ear to ear. She took me up to the room and I asked if church groups ever came to this retreat center and she said all the time. She said the land actually used to be affiliated to a church in the area and that she herself was a believer. I knew at that moment that the Lord said that this was home for the next couple of days. Praise the Lord.
My time in the mountains was surreal and something I would not have traded for anything. Rains poured the entire time which meant that I could not leave the comfort of my porch and room the entire time. There was no TV telephone to interrupt me so I read two years worth of journals. Talk about a brain overload but the Lord directed every bit of it.
At the end of the two days I had communion with just God and I. I gave myself to Him and the direction of my life and said that you are doing something pretty big here and I need your direction and help. He showered His love upon me and told me how much He loved me.
I love the living God with all of my heart, with all of my mind and with all of my soul. I know that the world and a lot of people that are around my life are going to think that I am nuts for some of the things that I do. I have come to grips with that and say that I will not stop doing what the Lord is calling me to do. I will be a radical Christian for the rest of my life which means love every single person that comes in my path and cry out with passion for the Living God to cover the entire earth.
Every knee will bow before the living God one day, what will we say before Him?
God Bless you!!!
