Since day one of training camp it was spoken over me that I embodied the Lords love. It was also said I looked like love. Month one of the race started and I realized I didn’t understand the way I loved or how to let people love me. So the lord taught me much. He challenged me and revealed to me my weaknesses when it came to this. The lord showed me what I had been believing for so long of what love was and what it looked like. And then he showed me what HIS perfect love looks like. He showed me what actual love is.
1 Corinthians 13.
Because of this. I’ve changed in the way I live in so many ways. Because the lord has changed my thoughts on love everything I do has changed from my relationships and conversations. To the everyday Caroline. When I wake up in the morning and I choose into living out of an overflow of my love for Jesus. And from that I can love people. My thoughts and the process of the thoughts have changed. It all comes back to the father because I LOVE him. The zeal that I processed is all from Jesus. There’s is a verse in the Bible that says “ we love because he first loved us” 1 John 4:9. Simply, Jesus has been teaching me really what this means and how it plays out in my life. Because I love Jesus and he’s my best friend I long to talk to him and spend time with him. He fills me up with more of his love more of his joy. It’s not me and my love that people see. It’s not my joy. It’s all seriously from the father.
I’ve been learning about the fathers love for 9 months now and it’s seems everyday there is still something new to learn. Ive walked through really good times where loving people is easy. I’ve been in times where the lord has me in a lonely season of just me and him where it’s hard to let people love me. I’ve been through times of confusion and comparison where I don’t know how to love the people in my life. But each and every time the lord has pointed me back to him. He has reminded me that the love that I get to experience everyday is perfect. And his never drys out or grows old it’s is everlasting.
