The Transformation Begins Before the Race

I seriously thought I’d be able to kick back and relax once I knew if I had been accepted to the World Race or not.  I’d either spend the next few months in careful planning and preparation before embarking on the most challenging event in my life.  Or simply shrug it off, if I was denied, and continue living my life as I had before.    Well I was accepted and from the moment I hung up the phone with the World Race people, I feel as if I took off running and haven’t had a chance to catch my breath.  I’m not complaining really but the process before the race has proven to be like nothing I expected.   God’s taking me for a ride…in order to prepare me for the bigger ride! 

 

For starters, trying to sell my condo and raise financial support during this economy has put my level of faith into question.  I’ve always thought I had faith.  I’m kind of cheerful.  I can encourage your socks off!  But, I’m having trouble believing the things that need to happen before January can actually happen.  The voice of doubt in my head is getting louder, “This just can’t be done.  It’s too much money to raise in such a short amount of time.  No banks are lending money on condos…you won’t be able to sell this property.  But, I’m so sure the Lord called me to this.” 

 

At first my lack of faith frightened me.  If I have so little faith while I’m still in the States…how am I going to survive out there?  But now I’m beginning to be thankful the doubt is getting so loud.  Only now that I am aware that it is there, can I can truly hand it over to the Lord and allow Him to change me. 

I don’t need to worry about every single penny.  I don’t need to worry about the condo.  I don’t need to worry about how quickly time seems to be slipping away.  I am not in control.  I can’t determine the final outcome. I am only being called to be faithful to Him.  He is in control.  Let the transformation begin Lord.