It’s not quite official because I haven’t seen a doctor to
confirm the diagnosis, but I am pretty confident that I have it. I am a sufferer of the “Grass is Greener on
the Other Side� syndrome. It’s an unfortunate
disease that leads to much unhappiness and dissatisfaction.
I think I’ve had it my whole life, but it’s just now
occurring to me that I’ve always struggled with it. You see I’m never really satisfied in my
circumstances. There’s always something
better coming up, and when I get to that point then things will be
perfect. Well things are never perfect
when I get there. I actually look back
and think of how good I had it before I got there.
For example, before the Race I couldn’t wait for the Race to
come because things were going to be so great once the Race was here. I was going to change, I was going to grow,
and I was going to overcome all of my troubles and strongholds. Then after a few months on the Race, I wanted
to be home again because if I was just home then I would have my family and
friends and everything would be perfect.
It’s sad to think that when I actually get home how much I’m going to
miss being on the Race. Yes I’ve changed
on the Race, but it hasn’t been easy in the slightest bit. Every change came out of me kicking and
screaming, rejecting what God was trying to do until I finally had to give in
and let Him have His way in me. And
guess what?! I haven’t magically become
this perfect person either. I still
struggle with a lot of stuff. Stuff I’m
going to have to deal with when I get home and possibly for the rest of my
life.
So why do I do this to myself? Why can’t I just be happy with the
circumstances God has me in for that season?
Every season is different.
Every season is there for a reason for me to grow and change. This season in the Race probably brought a
lot of change more quickly because of our circumstances, but there still is
always change going on even in an ordinary day.
What I’ve been realizing this month that life isn’t about my job. It’s not about being a missionary or working
a full time job behind a computer. It’s
about serving God even in the most mundane tasks and ordinary days. It’s about choosing to look for the
opportunities God is constantly placing in front of you and actually doing what
He wants you to do in those circumstances.
It’s all about serving God in every situation and being content even
when it’s not the most glamorous. Things
don’t just magically get better from a change of scenery. They magically get better when you make the
decision to not live for yourself or your future and make the most of every
opportunity. Look around-they’re
everywhere.
