Recently I’ve been learning a lot about abandonment. Coming on the race, all of us knew what we were stepping into. Leaving our families, friends, all of our comforts. Abandoning everything for the sake of the gospel. I knew it would be rough, but this is what I was willing to do to reach the unreached. This is what I was willing to do to spread the good word. We had everything we loved one day and just like that, we had to say goodbye. It was like a ripping off a bandaid.
Quick,
a bit painful,
done.
It was rough, but I knew it would get better. Once it got better, I was relieved. I thought to myself, thank goodness that hard abandonment stage is over.
Ha, so I thought.
I thought I had given up everything. I dropped everything that was “comfortable” and left it thousands of miles away for my amazing God. He’s worth that to me.
By being in month 6, I would say I’ve gotten the hang of things. I’ve gone through the abandonment stage and I’m doing great! Pretty comfortable even. So, guess what God asked of me next…
Let go of a relationship I love dearly.
I was hurt and confused by why God was calling me to give up something that I loved? I know that God sometimes asked us to abandon the things we love to grow closer to Him, but I didn’t understand. Why did I just leave everything and everyone I loved at home, just to be asked to give up even more? Hadn’t I given up enough?
Sometimes we just have to be broken down to build on an even stronger foundation with the Lord
This was very hard, once again, but I’ve learned something more this time. As much as it hurts to give up something we love, we have to know that God is only asking this of us because He loves us. He not out to get us. He is the only person that we can fully trust with our lives because He truly knows what’s best for us, even if we can’t see it just yet.
“No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Make level paths for your feet,” so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.”
??Hebrews? ?12:11-13? ?NIV??
During this hardship, I’ve been learning that it is okay to be broken and hurt. It’s okay to not be okay, but seek the Father in that. Trust in the Lord because there is a reason for this season and will bear unbelievable fruit. We can’t see what is to come, but know trust that the Lord will not leave obedience unnoticed. I can be honest and say that i still don’t unstand why God has asked me to abandon more, but I can say that I trust Him.
