With this chapter of my life coming to a close, I started thinking about what God’s been doing in my heart over the last few years. One of the areas I noticed my mindset has shifted completely is in terms of conviction. Nobody enjoys conviction. Let’s be real, that sinking feeling in your stomach and deeper understanding of the weight of what you’ve done isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s not a fun time.
Usually when it happens to me, I wanna run away and have a good cry in the car somewhere. But with my luck, I always happen to be stuck in a public place with so many people for what feels like far too long. However, just because I don’t enjoy this messy growth process doesn’t mean that it’s a bad thing… I don’t particularly like eating broccoli, but it’s good for me.
For a long time, I never saw the upside to conviction- my will pulling me in the right direction, even though my heart is so easily deceived. This internal battle has already been won for me. I’ve been learning to walk in the authority God has given me, declaring the truth of who He says I am.
‘Cause You don’t make mistakes
And You didn’t start with me
Even though I’m far from where I know I’m supposed to be
You don’t make mistakes
And heaven would agree
That in Your eyes I’m everything that I was made to be
It’s far too easy to make the mistake of believing the lie that we are our mess. We’re not what we do, good or bad. You are who He created you to BE. You are so much MORE! And conviction shows you that! It’s a reminder that despite our shortcomings, God has something so much greater in store for us!
No, I won’t waste another day
Believing words You didn’t say
I believe that slowly but surely God has been pulling me out of the darkness and into the light. But if we never notice that we’re in darkness, we settle for so much less than what he has for us and can’t see beyond our circumstances. The light allows us to see the entire picture. And that’s what conviction does- shine light in the dark.
So I’ve decided to embrace conviction. Bring it on! It’s bringing me one step closer to who I was created to be. It makes me aware of just how much I need Jesus every single day of my life. I am forgiven, I am saved by grace, and I am set free!
-Catherine Choquette 🙂
