About a month after you get home from the race, alumni racers are invited to come back to Adventures in Missions to debrief the race and being home, but y’all it has been SO much more than that.
In the past 6ish weeks I’ve been home, I feel like I’ve gone through the whole gamut of emotions and feels. However, the past three weeks had been particularly hard, but I didn’t even realize it! Somehow the first three weeks of transition that were really great and pretty easy turned into apathy and unknown and getting stuck in a rut of “I know I have all these things I learned and want to share, but I can’t figure out how or what platform to do it from.” And then six weeks later and getting lost in the “how” of it, turned into “Did I actually really change at all this year?”
Before I came to Project Searchlight, I honestly didn’t want to. I was getting back into the swing of things back home, I was about to start school again and needed to make sure things were in order, and I was comfortable. But the moment I drove onto AIM’s campus, I immediately felt twenty pounds lighter. I didn’t realize the weight I had been carrying. It felt prayed over, it felt safe, and like the Lord had prepared big things. Throughout the week that same feeling has remained and y’all He has shown up! He has spoken clarity, calling, conviction, change, and call to action.And seeing some of my squad has been sweetest time of just conversation and refreshment. I didn’t realize how much I missed my people and how much they actually felt like home to me until I had been away from them for almost two months.
This week has been a reminder that where I’m at in this time of transition, isn’t where I’m going and that I can expect just as much out of this year as I expected out of the World Race because maybe I’m not going to eleven countries in eleven months this year, but I am still walking with the same Jesus. The Jesus that’s the same in Mozambique as He is in small town North Carolina. The Jesus who’s character is always predictable, but when it comes to the way He works is always unpredictable.
