Thoughts on Seasons

Where I was,
what I was doing, who I was with (or not with).

I’ve been comparing
it to where I am now, what I am doing now, and who I am with now.

 

Last night, as
I started writing a life update, I realized something.

A new season
has started for me, and instead of celebrating and engaging in this new season,
I’ve been dwelling on seasons past.

 

Now-I don’t
think it’s wrong to look back at the seasons that have come and gone.

There is so
much we can learn, and so much growth we can see when we look back.

I just think
that people, in general, tend to cling to past seasons – either as an excuse to
wallow in their crap at the bottom of their pity pit because of everything that
has gone wrong in their lives…

Or because
they’ve compared the past and present seasons, and decided that the past season
was so much better, they would much rather be in it.

I think I’ve
been indulging a little bit in the comparison side of things.

 

Last year
was a different season – a stunning, difficult, complicated, messy, amazing
season.

And when I
think of all of the incredible things that happened during that time, I cry at
the beauty of the outcome.

 

As hard as
it is for me to believe at times, this season promises the same, but in
different ways.

If the one
constant in life is that nothing ever stays the same, then I have a choice to
make.

I can be at
peace with the changes and walk confidently in this new season, or I can sit in
the middle of my living room floor staring at pictures and remembering how
amazing my season on the World Race was.

God’s not
going to love me any less either way, but I would be cheating myself out of
some spectacular blessings if I chose to sit.

 

Every day I’m
faced with the choice to walk forward into what is next, regardless of how much I have to
fight for it, or to just sit and dwell in the past.

I know you’re faced with it, too, so – what are you
choosing?