I realize I have been severely lacking in the update department since my return home.
And I wish…
I wish it were because of a lack of words to describe life since the plane touched down in Phoenix, Arizona on December 4, 2010.
Much of my silence, I’ve realized in the last few days, has come because there have been many pages written in the story of my life, and every time I turn around, one of those pages is being edited.
While I realize no story is ever going to be completely perfect, there is a part of me that is waiting in anticipation of a time when these newest pages have reached a nearer state of readiness for revelation to the world.
One of the biggest challenges (and the subject of many new pages) in the last seven months has been my health.
What was supposed to be a routine eye exam turned into a several month process of determining what could be causing my optic nerves to look swollen.
Multiple doctors visits, scans, and tests later, I am told I have a condition that causes calcium deposits to collect on my optic nerves and make them appear swollen (called pseudopapilledema).
There’s nothing to be done at this point, other than to keep an eye on its progress.
And yes, I realize the pun I just made – feel free to laugh, groan, or shake your head, and then continue reading.
While I haven’t been writing regularly, I have been reading –
A lot of one thing in particular.
Remember this blog I wrote back in February?
Well, someone wrote in a blog I read somewhere a few months ago about how important it is to get your plans written down so that when the hard times/challenges/etc come, a reminder of the path you want to walking on exists for you to go back to.
I think I’ve pushed the view count on my blog post up heaps in going back to read it again, and again, and again – reminding myself that that’s the path I’ve been called to.
I have not given up, but the time is not now.
If I trust God has it all worked out perfectly (and I do), I should wait, and use this time to dig deeper into the relationship I have with Him.
The silence in my heart and mind is when I hear Him the most clearly anyway, so I am in the best possible place to be.
And I don’t want to be anywhere else.
P.S. Here are a few photos from the last couple of months to help you catch up visually!
Me and Mom on Mother’s Day – Dad was out of town for work, so I tried to spoil
her for him by making her take a day of rest and not letting her do
her for him by making her take a day of rest and not letting her do
anything I (or my brothers and sisters) could do for her.
My younger brother, James, locked himself in my parents’ van. This picture was
taken just after Oliver (another one of my brothers) unlocked the door and let
James out.
Yes, that is the Oscar Mayer Weiner Mobile. We saw it on the freeway beside us on
our way to church one Sunday. I couldn’t not get pictures of it (even if the picture was
through the back windshield).
Memorial Day – you were probably hanging out outside with food on the barbeque. I
was hanging out in the cool of a hotel room with these two amazing ladies (and
trying to stay out of trouble).
A jumping picture to celebrate an “all clear” from the neurologist. Yes, James is
sitting on the bench beside me.
I taught the Missions rotation during VBS last month. This is me with Marina,
one of the first kids I met at the beginning of the week (a blog about VBS will be coming).
And last, but not least… 4th of July with my baby nephew, Emil. Isn’t he adorable?
