Just when you think things couldn't possibly get any harder, you realize they can. I would say it's not much in the physical sense. We are doing ministry that we have done before and our living situation is similar as well. Nothing is too drastically different, other than the fact that we are in month eight of this World Race journey. Time is taking a toll on us.
I am being constantly reminded of the fact that I cannot make it through this on my own. I am back to the place where I am in constant need of the Lord walking this out with me minute by minute. I can't look at the day ahead, I can't even look an hour ahead if I want to make it through a day. I am so dependant on His strength to carry me through, if I look to myself or to the future too much I won't be able to make it.
The first three days of ministry this month I came back bawling my eyes out because I was so drained and felt like I could not go on for one more minute. I have nothing in me until I go back to my Source and get filled back up from Him.
As I go forward in this journey the time I'm spending with Him is becoming more and more. It's a constant going back and putting myself in His presence in order to make it through the next hour and then doing this over and over again throughout the day.
I have never felt so at the end of myself, like I will literally pass out if I even take one more step, and then I pray or say Jesus and I know I can make it one more step.
He provides for the moment, He is my Source, He is my daily bread, He is my all in all, and I'm seeing that in a new way this month. I'm thankful for the perseverance that it takes to complete this journey. I probably would not have even made it to month eight a year or so ago, but when I stop and remind myself of why He brought me here I am encouraged to continue on. I want to share this love that I found and this relationship that is my life now with those around me and all over the world.
The people here in Kenya are wonderful. People are very welcoming when we go door to door and we usually get invited in to share our faith even if it differs from theirs. God is definitely working and moving here in Kenya. Remember to continue to go back to your Source. Your Father is standing there with arms wide open waiting to embrace you and refill you as you walk out the journey of life with Him!!
