When I applied to squad lead I got questions like, don’t you want a career? Don’t you want to settle down and start a family? Are you sure you want to do this again?
Those questions sit with you! In America it is so normal to follow the American dream! Graduate, go to college, start a career, meet Mr.Right, settle down and start a family! When you live outside of that you often times are drilled with questions! So in the back of my mind I would often think, What the heck am I doing? Should I settle down? Should I finish school? At 26 what am I doing leaving everything to lead a squad!?
So arriving to Q Squads training camp I had a lot of different emotions, thoughts and feelings running through my head! So I really prayed a lot at training camp, “ Lord give me peace in all areas of my life!” I knew this was the season the Lord called me to, but it didn’t stop the questions from filling my mind!
Something the Lord put on my heart was to get baptized at training camp! My response, “Nah I’ve already done that!” But it kept coming up! So in my mind I thought, if they offer it, then I will think about it! Guess what??? They did!! They offered baptisms the last night! I was terrified! How can I get baptized when I am here to squad lead?? But I knew that the Lord was saying I needed to make the declaration that my faith was my own before I squad lead! I was baptized when I was young but my faith was my parents and I was under their covering! When I brought it to my leadership team, it was a resounding yes! My squad mentor also said something that set with me, ”There is no better way to lead than by example!” So the final night of training camp I got baptized! That night after being baptized, we had a night of worship! A night to commission all the racers off! As I stood there and watched my squad worship the Lord began to cover me with peace! I knew I was where I was suppose to be and as out of the ordinary as my choice might of been to some people, it was 100% the choice the Lord called me too! I had a brief moment of being uncomfortable but when I was willing to step out and do what the Lord asked, he blessed me with the one thing I needed, PEACE!!
I didn’t and still don’t have a single worry about the future, I am so very content with the season the Lord has called me into!
I know that the Lord has the perfect place for me to live after the race, the perfect man one day, the perfect dream and all the things and will give them to me in his perfect time! But for now I don’t know if there are words to describe how nice it is to live content and not worried about what’s next or the, “American dream!” Because squad leading Gap Year has been far more rewarding than anything else could of been in my life during this season! I’m thankful that the Lord has blessed me with this dream!
Much Love,
Cassie
