Something I've learned when I was in the process of recovering from self harm is to take life day by day.
Today may be bad but tomorrow will be better!
So, as for now I'm not focusing on what's going to happen on my trip or if I will be able to do it or any of that.
The first thing I'm focusing on is reaching my first deadline of $3,000 by September 28th, Which is so soon!
I'm terrified I won't be able to reach this goal and every time I feel that pit of fear in my stomach I hear Gods voice saying to me:
"My Child, You are following me and the path I have set forward for you. I will provide for you. You need not worry"
Then I get even more scared that I am not listening to that voice.
As I'm sitting here at my computer writing about my fears for fundraising with tears in my eyes all I hear is God repeating that statement to me over and over.
My heart feels light but my head feels heavy.
I need to get out of my own head and rely on God more.
