Wow! 6 days until my 23rd birthday!
To some people being 23 seems so young but to me I can't believe I'm that old.
When did that happen? I don't even consider myself an adult. Geeze, I am an adult, aren't I?
I can't help but think all that I've gone through the last few years.
I struggled with extreme depression and self harm for about 2 1/2 years.
I just calculated it and it really hurts me to think that I did that to myself so long, or even at all!
It hurts me even worse to think I hid that from my family, whom I have no secrets from.
I'm not going to go in depth with my self harm experience (maybe in another blog) especially since I know my mother will be reading this and I don't want to upset her (Hi mom! I love you more than anything and without you I would not have been able to overcome my depression and cutting!)
The 26th of this month I will be a year and 8 months clean, (nearly two years!) with absolutely no desire to ever cut again.
I cant help but thank God for giving me the strength to talk to my mom and my family about my cutting and to be able to use his strength he has given me to become 100% clean from self harm! My scars are also nearly faded!
Ever since I have fully accepted Jesus as my personal savior, Each year seems to get bigger and better!
MY 22nd year has been better than any year I've lived and I KNOW my 23rd year will be even better.
I will be turning 24 on the 6th month of my mission trip and I can't help but think that I will be in a completely different country living a completely different life!
I am so excited for my future and for all God is doing within me and others around me!
I can do all things through him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
