When I first signed up for this trip to South Africa, I was so on fire. I wanted so badly to leave right then and there. I was ready to go.
Then a couple months went by and I started to forget why I was going. I was in school, had made new friends who didn’t fully understand why I was going, and to be honest, I didn’t really fill them in either, I began to become overwhelmed with life but was still excited to go.
The closer it got to leaving I didn’t want to go anymore. I would tell people I was so excited to go but part of me didn’t want to go anymore at all. I wanted to stay home and finish my sophomore year of college, I wanted to stay with friends and family, i wanted to be able to work so I had money to do fun things. I wanted to stay comfortable.
Thanks to God, I was fully funded by August so I didn’t have an excuse not to go. I had all my gear. All my funds. Everything was in place. Everything but me.
Flash forward to training camp. FINALLY met my team and LOVED them. I was feeling better about going. Night 2 of training and i was SO homesick. I’ve ever been homesick before. This was not from God. I struggled through worship and stood in the back and cried. Then this girl from another team came up and asked if i needed prayer. she was the first of 3 that night that prayed over me. WOW THANKS GOD!
Part of me still struggled the first week of being gone because I felt like all we did was train and travel. I was ready to start doing stuff. meeting people. playing with the kids… and that was it… THE KIDS. when we finally saw the kids at the Preschool my heart was SO happy. over joyed. full. I finally remembered my WHY. Why God had called me to go on this trip. The funny part about that is that we were only with kids for about 2 hours maybe. and we have only had one day of ministry so far. But God used the little cuties to remind me why Im here. Now I am ready for the rest of my time here. Crazy how he works.
As I was writing this I was listening to some worship music and the song came on “Way Maker”. Here is part of that song….
///Even when I don’t see it you’re working. Even when I don’t feel it you’re working. You never stop. You never stop working. WAY MAKER. MIRACLE WORKER. PROMISE KEEPER. LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS. My God, that is who you are.
God is so good. He has already done some AMAZING things so far. I can’t wait to see what else He does. Thank you Lord!!!!!
