Dear friends and Family,
I'm home.
Two and half months early.
My heart feels broken.
And really happy.
My family, close friends and I all had a hand in making the really hard decision to bring me home because our living conditions in Honduras were not helping me to get better. I will update more later, once I have had time to think and process and come to terms with the complete shock of reentering the United States. I DO want to see all of the people who love me and have supported me through the past nine and a half months. I have so many stories to tell and so many to listen to because life continued on here too. For the time being though, I am trying to keep my world very, very small. I did not realize what reverse culture shock would feel like. It feels so strange that the clothes in my closet are mine and yet I feel a complete disassociation from most of the things that I used to love. Everything feels familiar and yet so foreign… from the smell of my soap in my bathroom to my old earrings… everything that existed about me here has to be rediscovered. I couldn't even remember where I live yesterday when my mom was driving me home so I am taking baby steps. I drove my car for the first time today. =) So weird. Even being around my own family, whom I missed terribly, made me feel like the room was swirling around, so I will be in touch as I slowly find my footing and readjust to life here. Know that I love everyone and appreciate your prayers for continued healing and that I absolutely do want to catch up and reunite and will as soon as my body and heart and surroundings reconnect and remember there is no place like home!!
Love to each of you!
Carrie
