I asked and my phone informed me this definition for anonymous: “having no outstanding, individual, or unusual features; unremarkable or impersonal”. But there is nothing individual or usual, unremarkable or impersonal about what you’ve done. To me it was very outstanding.
Honestly, I felt an involuntary urge to vomit.
Why?
Because I was so overcome by the nature of what you’d done.
I know it cost you. And i wish that I knew who you were so I could do what little thanks I could. But there must have been a reason, right? Why you kept your name out of it. Why you did your giving anonymously.
Tonight you were a touch from God for me. A reminder that He’s keeping His promise to me. You know that right? How you’ve taken hands with all the other hands carrying me into the path Gods calling me into this season. How grateful I am for you joining me in whatever Gods going to do with us this year!
Cause now you’re in. Irrevocably although anonymously, in. You can’t ever seperate yourself from what Gods going to do through you in Rwanda, Uganda, Ethiopia, Serbia, Bolivia, Romania, Thailand, Cambodia, Chile, Bulgaria, Paraguay…
and in me.
You’ve sown in.
Now, whatever God does in me you will reap. I pray the harvest is rich and overflowing. That the blessing you’ve poured on me will be returned to you ten times over. That the joy that will be yours will be abundant. I am sure of it.
How? Because you’ve given me so much expectation for what God is and will be doing! I’ve kept praying as the days have crept toward my deadline, “Lord, is this really what you want me to be doing? Lord? If not please make it clear!” And the story of Gideon crowds my mind…as days and financial providence are stripped away I hear a voice saying, “It is still too much!”
And I wonder what 300 will look like for me, as the “135,000” stare me down. And I feel like Gideon sneaking into the enemies camp to hear the enemy recount his dream of defeat as I stare at the total donations tonight before I slip into bed.
So dear one, you’re not anonymous anymore. To me you’re an outstanding, personal, remarkable gift. Thanks for introducing yourself to me! You’ve strengthened what faith I had; and supplied more of what I lacked.
