Trust.
Such a small word. But what a profound definition…
Trust:
The firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability or strength of someone. How many people can you say, using this definition, do you trust?
We all falter, as human beings. We may try our hardest, but if we’re honest, we still fail the ones we love and the ones we thought would never fail us, have failed us at some time.
But there is One who will never fail us. Funny thing is, He is usually the last one we go to.
There is a verse that has been my year-long theme, thus far. Because trust has been what He has been teaching me. Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”
Trust is the hardest thing to grant someone. To truly rely on His strength and His word alone can be so difficult because we want to have control. I’ve given over relationships and countless situations to God this year. I fret and worry about outcomes and confrontations and even about scenarios in my head. He has been teaching me to trust in His wisdom and rest in His peace. And that is what I have found when I give up my own pitiful understanding and begin to acknowledge Him. He is directing my paths and bringing peace to my soul.
This has been beyond excruciating, as someone who suffers from anxiety and the need to control my every situation- to hand over the reins. But it always works out better when I do give them up. My anxiety tends to be self-inflicted. Because I do not trust easily. I want that control. I think I can handle it better than God can. And that’s just silly, of course. But we all do it. Let me tell you, it is not worth the fight. It’s not worth holding onto all the things we can and cannot control.
I’m making steps to give Him my trust. To have a firm belief in His strength. I feel more calm and peaceful and victorious in my battle with anxiety when I let God take the reins. And it is liberating.
Trust in Him. You will not regret it.
