Right now is an odd time for me. It has been a time where I feel very raw. I am surrounded by this perfect storm of conditions (even triggers) that have put me into a position of vulnerability. The combination of being sick, uncomfortable, and out of control, mixed with a new team, new continent, very new culture, and a new ministry (of instability while seeking out new ministries), has left me in a state that I have always considered weak.
I want to eloquently write about what I have been feeling, but I don’t want to suppose anything. All I know is that the walls of pride, indifference, emotional stability, and all I considered strong are coming down. And I have been left in what feels like the rubble of emotional confusion. But, I know that this is exactly where God wants me. I am not being that hard yet brittle greenware pot that God can’t work with, but instead, I am crumbled mixed with water and am now workable clay in the hands of the potter.
I would love prayers that God can use me in this state while He grows me. And that I would stop being so ready to be out of this season. I don’t like being raw and uncomfortable so I try to flee from it. But pray that I instead can learn to embrace it and get the most out of what He wants to teach me.
I am writing this from Salima, Malawi but if you want to know more about the mobile ministry I have been doing this month you can click on the following link: http://carolinesadventuresinlife.blogspot.com/2015/01/the-mobile-ministry-of-unsung-heroes.html
