Defying Gravity is a song that has been a favorite since I first heard it, more importantly, it has been my heart’s anthem when going through the preparation for The World Race
Let Me Clarify:
Something has changed within me,
Something is not the same.
If you have known me for more than a half a second, you know I’m a peppy kind of a girl. That being said, as soon as I started the WR process there was a shift in my heart. My fulfillment and joy are at a whole new level, it’s not a change I can pinpoint, but something that anyone who has known me (pre-race acceptance) can attest to.
I'm through with playing by the rules
of someone else's game.
I am letting go of the expectations I’ve had on what my career should look like and plan on letting my heart lead me to where it feels the most convicted to make a difference. This might take awhile since I’m pretty convicted for the world’s pain and feel it in a pretty intense way.Honestly, I really have no idea what my post-race life will look like, this is just the starting point. God’s plan can be hard to hear over our own, I have no doubt this will be a process.
Too late for second-guessing,
Too late to go back to sleep.
It's time to trust my instincts,
Close my eyes and leap.
This is one of my favorite parts of the song; it truly gets me excited for this next year and all the amazing experiences I can in no way predict. I know this is where I am supposed to be. I have NO CLUE what is it going to be like, but I know this IS a defining moment (an 11 month moment ) of my life and I can’t believe this is real.
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
Man-oh-man does this have a whole new meaning after training camp! You see, when WR staff told us that our mission is to:
6 but go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. 7 And proclaim as you go, saying, ‘The kingdom of heaven is at hand.’ 8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, cast out demons.(Mathew 10:8)
My first response was “YA, OK! You clearly have the wrong girl, cause… I don’t know if you know this, but I can’t do that stuff”.
God spoke to my heart
You think for some reason I can’t break scientific laws that I CREATED and that My presence can’t defy gravity? silly Caroline, I love you, but… you're crazy.
THEN God responded by providing affirmation through example (the Holy Spirit is AWESOME) and I came to realized, those hard to believe things are only hard to believe because I box in my expectations of what He can do.
Soooo this is my disclaimer
My first hand stories from this coming year are going to be hard to believe. They are going to include moments of healing, prophecy, and life-giving that are NUTS, but also, a big presence (ya know… the Holy Spirit) in my new community
Kiss me goodbye I'm
Defying Gravity
And you won't bring me down…
Since signing up, SOoooo much of my WR experiences have been about seeing the lies on my heart and facing them for what they are.
I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so.
Some things I cannot change,
But till I try, I'll never know.
"Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, cast out demons."
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost.
Well If thats love it,
Comes at much too high a cost
(after this the song repeats from the start)
I love to love on people! It brings me more joy and energy than anything else. So a year long missions trip is kinda an AWESOME place for someone like myself who has a servants heart.
But wait, there is a twist!
Of course there is a twist I didn’t expect… What kind of a story do you think this is
This year is about learning what living in His Kingdom is all about. That doesn’t JUST mean loving His children, it means being loved as His child.
It means learning and understanding that His community interacts through reciprocal love and respect.
This year I will start to learn how to let people love me back (especially my peers). I am uncomfortable when I feel “taken care of”, and yet, I will have moments on this race where I will have to give that up. I now realize, it takes a lot more courage and humility to let someone love you back than to love others. I am a coward to being loved in a reciprocal way, yet I am so excited to grow out of this discomfort.
I have been changed and healed in sooo many ways by the love I have received since the WR entered my life (totes a God’s love thing),
Thank you!
