Sorry for the delay…

 

Hello wonderful people.

I realize that it has been a long time since I have posted a blog, about a month to be exact. I apologize for that. The reason being, in my stay in Malaysia last month, a nation heavily entrenched in Islam, we were asked to not blog at all until we left the country so as not to put any of our ministry contacts at risk. I will not spend a lot of time talking about Malaysia in this particular blog, that will be in future postings as GOD gives me the words to write. I am however eager to share a series of revelations I have received from the LORD on this journey. GOD has been absolutely checking my little heart as of lately on HIS quest to make me a woman of character, truth, honor and grace. It has not been an easy journey, yet I am thankful for a Father who loves me, and exercises the "Love is patient" scripture in my life every day. As I write this I am in a kitchen in the middle of Siem Riep Cambodia, the country side. I have been blessed with the opportunity to Love GODs people here as a teacher this month, and yet I am the one learning. I find myself loved by Him every day to a new place of Truth, and His grace gives me the strength to move forward. As I look at the children playing in the yard I am reminded of the Fathers Love toward me, and how He watches over me with the same smile and admiration, only 1000 times more than I could ever give to them. I believe that I am beginning to know what Love is…

 

And not just physical attraction and secrets shared.

No…

The kind of Love that leads you out on a ledge, naked and vulnerable, in all openness and Honesty. The kind where in that state a person can look you straight in the eyes and say "I love you", and not give it a second thought. A love that deepens every moment, a Love that chooses what is best for a person. A pure Love. That is what the Father has done for me here on this journey. Opened my eyes to the filth of sin that glazed and filled my heart. GOD took His bare hands and reached deep down into my heart and soul, to the point where it hurt. The pain was excruciating at times, I cried, kicked and screamed in deliverance. And what he pulled out was me. All of my views, values, wants, lusts, ambitions and other selfish desires. And I was left empty. But not to no avail because no sooner did I realize that He was filling me back up again, with Himself. And I feast on His Love, and Knowledge like a King. 

 

So here I am. Feasting on the fullness of the LORD. Emptied from the purging, and yet fuller than I have ever been. I invite you to take this journey with me. But I caution you, if you have come here looking for the carm or carmella you once knew you will be sorely disappointed. She is not here, she is dead. But what I pray you find as you read theses words for the rest of my blogs on the race is new peace and revelation on How GOD can, will and wants to change your life as well. About how He desires that newness with you, and although open heart surgery is not easy, and  recovery is painful, the state of your health after you recover will be restored to its rightful place. 

 

So welcome. And feel free to ask question in the comments section or email/FB message me. We can all learn together, and I desire as well to expose other young people, and believers to the need and importance to fulfill the great commission. There will be tons of scripture dissected as well, I am in a season of digging into the WORD like never before. I hunger for His truth, and I am on a quest to find it, and walk in it…

with Love,

Carmella