Anyway, I’ve been reading through Matthew and today I read Matthew 14: 25-33
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,� they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.�
28 “Lord, if it’s you,� Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.�
29 “Come,� he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!�
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,� he said, “why did you doubt?�
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.�
This story really spoke to me in this season that I’m currently walking through. This year has stirred up so many things inside of me, I’ve experienced the lame getting up and walking, food multiplying before our eyes, I’ve seen the poorest of the poor and held the brokenhearted while speaking God’s truth and life over them. I’ve known first hand the difference Christ’s love can make in a person’s life who has completely lost hope.
So what now? I come back home….over and over I’ve seen God move this year….but theres another need and that is the one I know is in America…a place where I KNOW the culture, I SPEAK the language, I don’t have to be briefed on the needs we have, I KNOW first hand the things that plague our country where the enemy seems to run free (broken families, depression, teen pregnancy, etc…etc…) So what do I do? I’ve been praying Lord show me where I’m supposed to serve you, where am I supposed to pour myself out? I no longer have the luxury of showing up in a country and having ministry laid out before me, Lord anything is possible….where do you want me? Please call me out into the water as you did Peter…I WANT to follow you, I WANT to serve you….
So far the Lord hasn’t given me the specifics, only that when I do walk out of the boat, he WILL be there, it is risky, its scary but I know it’s RIGHT. I trust my Lord and Savior and like Peter when I get home I’m not going to just sit comfortably in my boat, I’m going to step out when He calls to me. I believe I came on this Race for a reason, and I know that once I reach America it doesn’t end. My life will be forever changed, ruined for Christ for eternity, and honestly I couldn’t think of a better way to be! It’s hard not knowing the specifics, but my comfort no longer comes from being in control of having a plan, my comfort comes from knowing my Savior, who is always faithful and is with me ALWAYS, “even to the end of the age”.
So partner with me to pray for the future, I dont know what it’ll hold yet but I do know it’ll be living radically, not settling for what the world defines as “comfortable” but instead walking out of the boat onto the waves with Faith in my Best Friend: Jesus.
Christian gypsy family we met at the train station, so encouraged to meet believers!
Me and some of the boys at VBS camp, Ukrainian style 🙂 I love that instead of the peace sign my young friend is making the “I love you” symbol with his hand!
Continue to pray for our ministry this week, Thursday we host another English learning night at the church (last week we had a great turn out and got to share with many non Christians about our hope in Christ it was awesome!) This Wednesday is the last day for VBS, it’ll be hard to say goodbye to the kids we’ve gotten attached to so quickly! We’ve met several college students from the area and are building relationships with them, so pray for awesome conversations seasoned with His SALT every day! 🙂
