As I began to write, I saw a vision of a baseball field. I immediately thought, “Field of Dreams.”
This thought may have crossed my mind because I’m currently missing postseason baseball games or because the annual Field of Dreams Simmental sale recently took place. God only knows… But, the vision sent my mind reeling.
I’m writing this as I sit at a picnic table in the Zambian heat overlooking a large field-like yard which looks more like a barren wasteland than lush potential. This country is in a severe drought. Much like the one in my heart right now.
I’m hearing God more than ever, don’t get me wrong. I’m trying hard to listen. The drought in my heart is regarding purpose. I often lose sight of my purpose these days. I struggle to find a rhythm, and honestly, fear of the future encroaches on my peace.
I grew up in a field of dreams. (Literally and figuratively – I grew up surrounded by fields.) I was encouraged and cheered on. I undoubtedly have one of the best support systems a girl can have. The problem? I don’t know how to best combine my passions, my strengths and “Kingdom Culture.” Watching the body of Christ work efficiently is a beautiful thing, but finding my place in the body is a challenge. How do I best incorporate my faith into a career? How will I practice spirituality in industry? How does God want to use me in the workplace?
As the Race progresses, the possibilities of what life could look like after the Race consume me. One thing remains: I don’t know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future.
Pray for me (and for Zambia) as we thirst after the possibilities of potential that will present themselves if we can get through this season of drought.
While I wrestle, I hold on to this principal: “God often uses what we’re good at to guide us into what we do next.”
He gave me skill sets and passions and strengths for a reason. I naturally connect with and care about people. (Thank you, extroversion!) I organize well, instruct boldly and administrate with ease – all leadership qualities I’m pressing into. I’m secure in who I am and what I’m good at. Now I wait… I wait to see what God will reveal to me. Where does he want me and how does he want to use me?
Zambia is teaching me things and I’m growing every day. I ask for prayers of peace as I seek His will in all I do, present and future. I know I’m not alone in this this battle and I’m fiercely praying for those in the same boat. Let’s do all we can to spread the Kingdom Culture in whatever setting He has for us.
Much love,
Carley
