Why is it so hard to keep trusting that You can be trusted? Your steadfast love and faithfulness are so much of Your essence. Your goodness and grace are sweeter than honey. I have no doubt that You are God yet, I still find myself wondering what if You are not. I write this and it breaks me to think how unfaithful I can be. Why should I be trusted I might want to start wondering more often? Why would You ever trust me if my faith seems to be so weak? If we are faithless, You remain faithful, for You cannot deny Yourself. So my mind is blown away, not once or twice but over and over and over again. Day after day the gift of Your faithfulness continues to allow me to trust You. Your faithfulness remains as the core of my faith. Your relentless pursue of me overwhelms me towards a surrendered heart. You are faithful, You are faithful, never forget, always faithful.
For without faith it is impossible to please You, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that You exist and that You reward those who seek You. Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. So I cannot help but trust You. If I said I want to be totally in, completely sold out for Your mission and Your gospel, then placing my confidence in anything else but You would be pure lack of trust. We are called to walk by faith and not by sight, trust is clearly part of it all. Somehow in the midst of everything, in the midst of our unfaithfulness, You manage to reach out, You grab our hand and You lead us to that kind of faith. The kind of faith that allows us to remain faithful. There is a daring faith that You are inviting us to be part of and ohh how much I long to discover more about it. There is such a depth to the trust You ask for. I clearly cannot begin to grasp it, yet somehow I find myself desiring more of You and more of that trust.
So I pray, I pray that Your faithfulness will sustain us to finish the race. That Your steadfast love will lead us as we so desperately ask You to teach us how to seek You and trust You. That Your goodness will be a constant reminder that no matter what happens we can always trust You. That Your grace will be so irresistible that we cannot help but rest in Your salvation and the beautiful gift of Jesus. I pray for more faith, for more trust and less doubt. I pray for faith that will only give You the glory and trust that will entirely believe that You indeed are a promise keeper. Jesus I believe, please, I beg You, help my unbelief.
