My mom once told me that my rebellious self has always struggled with authority. If you know me well, you probably know this about me. I love to think and to claim that I am a free spirit. I do as I please and walk as I seek. Truth is, I am not, I belong to an amazing God that has changed everything about the way I live. It is crazy to look back and think how different things were 5 years ago. I look back to someone who knew she had no freedom so she refused to be controlled. Desperately seeking independence and freedom; for the truth will set you free, Jesus said. If you love me you will obey my commands. For it is Thy will and not my will. Take this cup from me, but again not my will but Your will. For me, the hardest part about following Jesus is submitting to His authority instead of mine. My skeptic self wonders, what if I am submitting to a man-made god anyways? I do not know, I cannot prove God is real but then again, I cannot deny Him. I can love in a way I never thought possible. I look around and I am constantly in awe of creation. I see miracles happening everywhere that cannot be explained without a God. Then I guess it should be easy to submit to the King, the Lord of lords, the one true God. It is hard though, and this time oh how much harder it seems to be. Honestly, how hard it continues to be. I doubt, what if I am messing up, what if I let go of all the things I have to follow Jesus around the world? Then again, isn’t He the giver of all things after all? If you lose your life you will gain it, He told us. But what if I do not, what if I am the exception to that statement. I guess we could call it faith. Faith that begins by believing that what Jesus said was not a mere statement but it was the truth. Faith that the truth is not like any rule, therefore, there is no exception. Let’s call it faith of a mustard seed so maybe we can move some mountains. I do not know, I truly do not, but I do know obedience is not negotiable in the Kingdom of God. I know He has invited me to let go of what I have, trust Him and go. To let go of the comfortable lifestyle I have and seek Him more. He has invited me to join His world mission that well, it might truly help me understand what He meant by if you lose your life you will gain it. So I am going on this World Race adventure. So what if? What if we take the risk? What if we, for a minute ask, beg and pray for incredible faith? Faith that is uncomfortable, faith that will push us to believe the impossible. The kind of love that will suffice, for God so loved the world that He gave His only Son. So I do not know what is about to happen, I do not know what is about to go down, but yes Lord, I am hyped! Maybe, maybe, just maybe I will gain more of Him as I lose more of me. Stay tuned people, the adventure has just begun.
