People ask me all of the time why I am going on the world race and every time I give them the same automated response “it’s something that God has called me to do.” Normally I get a pretty good response.. And then there is always that one person who asks why I would do something like that and why I would give up a year of my life to do this.
Every time I get asked that question it gets me wondering and constantly thinking. Is this really something I want to do?
No it’s not.
I would love to be a normal college student getting ready to go into the real world, starting a family and doing all of the “normal” things kids do these days.
But I can’t. Why? Because every time I try doing these normal things, I get stuck. Simply because these things don’t give me fulfillment. I’m always wanting and craving more.
I have a desire so deep in my heart to find God, and have him live in every place of my heart. I want to experience him in ways that I’ve never experienced him and be lenient to his call.
So how do I do that?
By being obedient. I can’t find the things I’m looking for in living a normal every day life. I need to be flexible, I need to step out of my comfort zone and do things that I don’t want to do. I need to bend to Gods need and will instead of my own and the people around me.
Leaving my family and loved ones behind is going to be heartbreaking. Leaving my life behind is going to be dreadful. But the crazy thing is that it’s going to BE WORTH IT.
This next year of my life is going to extremely challenging. It’s going to bring me to my knees and show me what it means to truly depend on my savior.
I’m proud to say that I’m not going on the world race for me, I’m going for Jesus.
