I couldn't figure out what drew me to him. I couldn't figure out why my heart literally leapt with joy the moment I saw him. It was instantaneous. We became inseparable. I know this probably won't be the last time I feel like this for a child I meet while I'm on the race. A part of me fears that for the knowledge of having to say goodbye.
So I asked, but why the connection, God? Why is it THIS little boy? Was it his "all boy" actions of jumping, kicking, running like a mad man? Was it the seriously "melt my heart" smile? Was it his love for me? Was it that he remembered my name? Was it his adorably sweet spirit? Was it that he thought enough of me to get me a going away present (according to his mother he cried!)? Was it his hilarious facial expressions? Was it his exuberant, joyful personality? He is perfect in every way. He is just…. him!
Totally on his own. 
He was so tired of taking pictures at this point. This is the scarf he got me and note that says: To Cara: Good-bye Lai Tian Yeo
He doesn't like taking pictures. So he makes faces.. reminds me of me when I was little!
So silly! I love his obsession with ninjas!
Then God spoke… This is how I love you.
I've never been a mother. I don't know what that love feels like. But I feel like I've come as close as I can with this little boy. God has never spoken so clearly as He has through my love for Lai Tian Yeo. I can understand a little better the Father's love for me. He loves me just because I am me. Just like I love Lai Tian Yeo.
Praise God for His beautiful lessons! Thank you, God for speaking through little children. You know the way to my heart and You continue to pursue me in such creative ways! Joy unspeakable.
Do you have trouble experiences a fatherly love from God? Ask Him to show you how He feels about you. He will most certainly answer… and probably in the least way you expect it.
By the way: Lai Tian Yeo's mom and I exchanged emails so hopefully I will get to keep my relationship with him!
