Confession: I’m exhausted! Physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I can’t fall asleep at nights, I am spiritually broken, mentally over-stimulated and emotionally drained.
Much to my suprise, my heart has been drawn to the bars. Honestly though, when we first arrived I thought I would do outreach once, see it, be terrified and chill in the air conditioned office! But God had different plans for me.
“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.” Proverbs 17:9
So I know that the Lord has called me to be a light in the dark, after all, my name does mean “glowing” and I am all for living up to that! But yesterday I started to question if I should go on outreach tonight. At first I was ignoring the idea, thinking that perhaps the enemy was trying to keep me away from the bars. Then this morning I felt the call to stay back and pray. I talked to the girls about it and a couple others were feeling the same way.
So Katie, Morgan and I stayed back at the volunteer house and prayed while the girls were on outreach. Morgan was there to pray specifically with a recovering prostitute who is in a huge spiritual battle. Katie and I sat in the other room and poured out our hearts and prayed scripture
(“For the word of God is Living and Active!” Hebrews 4:12) over ourselves, the team, the house and Bangkok. Eventually two of the volunteers and Morgan came in and prayed with us. It was beautiful scene, we had representatives from England, America and India praying in the heart of Thailand. I believe there is power in that!
“…from every nation, tribe, people and language, standing before the throne and in front of the Lamb…And they cried “Salvation belongs to our God, who sists on the throne, and to the lamb” Rev 7:9-10
I feel completely honored to be called by the God of the Universe to place of prayer and intimacy with Him. Thats right, He chose me tonight! OH my, I can hardly contain the joy I am filled with.
