The thing is, I am exactly where God wants me. I am doing exactly what my Father has called me to do.
However, I didn’t turn into some perfect Christian person when I came to Christ. No one does. He just sees me through the blood He shed for me. And, I am constantly allowing Him to remind me how He sees me with eyes of perfect love and grace, not condemnation or regret.
Even still:
In fact, the exact opposite happened…
As much as I would love to say that I turned my life around the second I accepted Christ in my life, I just can’t say that. It has been such a process. I just began doing things in secret, every few months my life would take a few steps back and i wouldn’t want anyone to know. it’s so strange looking back on it now. God knows exactly what I was doing and just keeps on loving me anyways and patiently picks me back up every time I stumble. Boy, have I stumbled! But, it never takes long to get back up. I would just go sit at the feet of my loving father and give all my struggles back to him and accept the grace that is so freely given to me every time.
I haven’t changed because of some set of rules. I allowed God to show me my lifestyle that needed to change and made a choice to choose God’s love to overtake my heart and soul. I have to make that constant decision every day to choose to obey what He has called me to. It gets a little easier every day with God standing there right next to me helping me through every challenge and struggle reminding me how much He loves me. But, I don’t always want to do make the right decision and, sometimes, I don’t. And, that’s okay, because each time I fall, God shows His love and mercy to me, and I can tell others all about Him and His glory. God loves me despite my imperfections and all I have to do is obey and love Him back.
It doesn’t really matter what our sins are. It makes no difference to Him. He just sees sin. We all struggle with something and we are all born sinners. He isn’t surprised by them… no, not at all. He just wants them. He wants our sins, our struggles, our shame, our secrets, and our regrets. He wants all of it. He died so that our sins would be forgiven. He died so that we would be seen blameless. We are so much more in His eyes.
• Worthy
• Blameless
• Righteous
• Beautiful
• Holy
• Daughter
• Son
Now its all about choosing to accept the grace He is giving us everyday by picking up our cross and following Him!
So will you, will you pick up your cross?
Much love 🙂
