When I was a little girl, life was so easy. I was spoiled rotten, and the only thing momma and daddy had to worry about was me. That all changed three days before I turned six.
When I found out momma was pregnant I told everyone I was gonna have a baby sister, and if it was a boy anyone could have him. I told everyone I didn’t want a baby brother, boy was I ever wrong. He’s my favorite baby brother, and not just cause he’s the only one I have!
I was home I’m sure hanging out with Malibu Barbie, driving her around in her adorable pink convertible, or dressing her in a super stylish outfit, that I wished they made in my size. When I was told we were going to the hospital cause momma was having my baby sister.
I was so excited thinking I had some one to play Barbie with! How exciting is that? We could play dress up, and have tea parties, and talk about boys together, none of which we could have done for a few years any ways, but at 5 you think that’s all gonna happen at the hospital. Life was gonna be so good!
Then someone told me, momma had a boy. Wait, what? Excuse me? I think there has been some kind of mistake, I’m having a little sister.
I figured I’d at least give him a shot, so I climbed up on the bed and she handed me the most adorable child on earth! I still think he is the most amazing kid ever, by the way. I’ll never forget his head full of black hair, and his big brown eyes. He was hands down the cutest thing I’d ever seen!
Then people started to come in, and one by one they would all say,”since he’s a boy we can have him right,” my response every time was, “NO, are you crazy, this is my little brother, no one can have him!”
I swear I sat on that bed for hours holding him in my arms being a little momma, telling everyone that came in that they couldn’t have him, it was a moment I’ll never forget. We took him home and everything changed. I fell more in love with that kid every day, and still do. These days I fall in love everyday at the same time when I’m lifting him up in prayer half way around the world, to our Amazing Father in heaven, who has plans to give him a hope, and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)
This month he moved out, and graduated high school, and I’m not there for either things. He’s no longer the little, six pound nothing baby who was asleep in my lap the day he came into the world, or the clumsy kid who fell and sliced his leg open on the neighbors boat, and cried for me not to call our mother, cause he was scared to death to get stitches. He’s not the little boy who I used to beat up, cause now he can kinda take me 😉 He’s no longer the kid who used to sneak into my room late at night, to see if I wanted snacks, and to watch Ed, Edd, and Eddy. He’s not little anymore and to be honest that scares me cause this world is huge with such bad influences. I’m not sure that he is big enough to not let the world around him influence who he is.
So Tommy if you are reading this, and you better be, you are a GREAT kid! You’re still my baby brother and I’m so proud of the little man you are turning into. No matter how insane it may feel to be growing up, how alone you might feel, or how in control you think you are, I’m here for you. I’m here to cry, fight, laugh, and hold your little grown up hand through whatever life might bring you. Just don’t let life bring you down! Don’t let life bring death!
Our God is bigger than your circumstances, He is bigger than our trails, He is bigger than our enemy, and He is bigger than you! The things He says about you are incredible. Just let them sink in as you read the words on the screen, let them come alive.
*He says you are His son. How amazing Tommy, He cares about you enough to call you his son. (Romans8:14-17)
*He says you are CHOSEN to bear his fruit! Dude, he trusts you enough that you were entrusted to bear his fruit, so exciting! (John 15:16)
*He says you are a Saint. What?! That’s the coolest, even in our wickedness God still calls us saints. That’s what he thinks of you man! I can’t say I’m surprised at all, knowing your heart. Not one scripture but 4 tells us this! (1 Cor. 1:2; Eph. 1:1; Phil. 1:1; Col. 1:2)
*He says you are a son of LIGHT not darkness. This scripture speaks for itself. ( 1 Thess. 5:5)
*He says you are a child of God, and the evil one -the devil- cannot touch you! Dude you are protected by Gods hand. 🙂 powerful stuff (1 John 5:18)
*He says you are chosen and dearly loved. ( Col. 3:12; 1 Thess. 1:4)
So when life gets hard and you’re not sure who you are, and you feel like life is caving in on you, be reminded that you are everything God says you are. God is so proud of you, he sent his son to die for you cause he loved you that much. Your family loves you that much too!
I am so proud of you Tommy, but it doesn’t stop here. God has huge plans for your life and he won’t stop until the work he started in you is brought to completion. I love you so much and can’t wait to get home and hug your neck! Stay empowered and start being the light that is inside of you. Start being who God says you are!
Missing you little brother!
Love you big big around the world,
Sister
