Fear…. aint nobody got time for dat!!

If you are in fear than you cannot be in faith…

This is something that i had to really wrap my mind around in church this Sunday. Since i am taking this huge leap of faith but i am in so much fear.

• Fear i wont meet my deadlines
• Fear that i wont make the money needed to get personal item needed for the trip
• Fear that none of my fundraising efforts will be enough
• Fear that He wont show up. (this has got to be the craziest of all my fears)
• Fear that I am biting off more than i can chew
• Fear that when i come back my friends/family wont know who i am 
• Fear that i don't have enough to bring to the table, that I'm not capable of such a task. 
• Fear that what i really feel him calling me to do isn't what i want to do.
• fear that everyone will be all like your grammar and spelling is horrible… (my grammar isn't something i plan to work on so get used to the fact that every blog you read will be extremely grammatically incorrect) 😉

God is in everyway telling me not to fear that he has got this (honestly i am having a hard time doing so) 

Our church services the last four weeks were all about being fearless.. or as Renee says earless (it kinda does look as though there is no F)… LOL

So in all this fearless talk i have decided…. drum roll please!!! 

I Will not be fearful anymore! Fear will no longer be toxic to my body. I refuse to let fear keep me from knowing the true love of my Father.  

 

I prayed the other day to God.. it went something like.. 

Father please I am scared to death.

 I am so fearful with everything going on now leading up to the race.

I am SO overwhelmed. (i have used this expression at least a million times)

I need some help with everything going on..  

I really just want everyone to do everything for me!!   (this i am not to proud to admit)

I know its time for me to do it on my own.. Oh wait no its not… ITS TIME FOR ME TO RELY ON HIM, AND HIM ALONE!

Then in a blink of an eye all my fear has vanished.. Well at least for the time being.. Don't get me wrong my flesh is still terrified of all the above… but these last two weeks have been incredible. I have really just soaked up all his presence. I have brought to the table what I have to offer and He has done the rest… seriously

So i decided to let go of the fear and just rely on Him..i felt that my fear and worry were hand in hand so I looked up worry in my bible to begin all the prayer and read what the word said about worry. I don't know much but i know that worrying about anything is a no no.. lol i wasn't really raised on reading the bible I'm very new to it actually.. Anyways worry took me to anxiety and the definition in my bible is overcome by trust in God….  WOW that's it??!?! really that all this anxiety is about.. I'm overcome by trust in God..

i was also brought to Matthew 6:26-27 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not more valuable than they? 27 can anyone of you by worrying add one single hour to your life? This hit hard.. how can be over here all full of worry about a bunch of things He has not called me to worry about.. He clearly has this.

This is what God has done in the last SHORT week.. He has taken away my fear by just being Himself and showering me in His love through other people.. many of who I DON'T KNOW! : )Last week someone got ahold of my support letter and messaged me on Facebook and told me that she would love to do a fundraiser with me. She is a Thirty One representative and is giving me 100% commission… wow i don't even know this lady but that is what God laid on her heart to do for me… She is also bending over backwards to help me get things in order she created the Facebook event and has asked around for donations and what not. It is amazing the love that God is showing me through just this one person.. But there are others. The Silpada representative is also giving me 100% commission!! 🙂 Also someone who i don't know nor have i ever spoken with has donated an hour massage to the silent auction i am having at the fundraiser. So financially He is telling me to TRUST HIM! Cause he only does things 100% I think i can do that.. its all yours dude!

But it don't stop there.. Oh no it gets better. He took away the overwhelming spirit that cripples me to get anything accomplished.. For the people who know me…well lets just say you know i am the most unorganized person ever made..I never start a project or anything I set my mind to.. I always have these big dreams but they always stay dreams! NOT ANYMORE!! I made a list, and did the things on it.. that is huge for me! He has already started to transform me. Before i was scared. when I started to feel the transformation taking place. But now i am confident in knowing that this is His plan and all will work out how he wants it to. I am so ready to find out other strengths I have that haven't been brought to surface yet. He is doing a work in me and wont stop till it is complete! 🙂 

 

 

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