So, over the last six months, I have gotten to meet some of my squad members. Over Facebook, Skype, and even in person. I have been praying for a squad that I really “fit” with. I mean, I’m weird, I just see things differently than a lot of people. So I have been praying for just a couple people I can be real with and open my heart to. Which is okay, but it’s bad the way I do it. Keep some close, keep others at arms length. It always hurts me and others, but I was okay with it. I’m used to it…
I was getting pretty stoked because a couple people on my squad seemed like the people who I would really mesh with. My go to people. My sanity. God had another plan. Megan, and Bryan both had to go on a later squad for various reasons.
My immediate response “This must be happening because I punched that boy in the stomach, in the 3rd grade, and made him cry. Man, payback really is a….. “
To be honest, I can’t explain how I feel at the moment. I don’t really know the proper word (my mom didn’t punish me by making me read the dictionary as a child). I’m just feeling confused. However, I know that God is going to work everything out for my good. My squad is full of incredible people who I’m thrilled to meet. Plus, God’s plan is so much better than mine.
I also know that He wants me to learn to really love others. Even if they are different than me. Even if we don’t see everything the same. Even if I’m scared to let them in. I must remember that this Journey is about God. I know that he wants me to have Joy in who I travel with, but nobody gets to be my sanity but Him. He is a jealous God.
"It is God to whom and with whom we travel, and while He is the end of our journey, He is also at every stopping place."
— Elisabeth Elliot
Ps. I was watching a current racers videos and I found this!!!! Priceless!!!!
