words spilled one chilly, foggy morning in our home in Draganesti-olt while listening to this song 🙂
what else do I got?
I got God!!!
what else do I need?
I got God!!!
“where he at?”
He’s with me!!
He’s got me!!
Do I have Him or He has me??
…
What about both?!!
this beautlful exchange heart for heart and life for life.
I see things CLEAR with God.
suddenly expectation and standards standards standards change.
all I am is under Him.
life is a joy to live
I got God!!!
what other blessing?
no more #blessed because #Things are going good
no!
#blessed because #God is the good one!
#blessed because He Himself full love with mercy and truth and goodness and forgiveness is the blessing.
I am doing as well as i’m seeing-
and if my eyes are on Him
i’m doing pretty good if you ask me!!
suddenly the lightness of not going day-by-day or situation becomes clear
Nothing that I am depending on changes! there is this never ending constant!! My home!!
No state, no people, no lack of people, no language can change this kind of Hoem I have.
I got God!
Home is within me because heaven is within me!
I don’t have to wait until I die,
I already died to myself and now there’s life!!
BLESS THE LORD O MY SOUL.
each day i’m not living in yesterday but I get to thank and praise God Again today!! the same way we did yesterday because He’s worthy of the same amount of praise!! it isn’t dependent on the WEATHER OR THE SCHEDULE FOR THE DAY.
He’s somehow taken all things that were ever heavy within my life and shown me light and beauty within the working of it all.
through the pain he showed me healing.
with plans and plans and dreams he trades then for a life my little imagination couldn’t even dream of having!!!
LET ALL THATS WITHIN ME SHOUT OUT
God I can’t keep this to myself your life is so good!!! your way is always leading to more life! Ya Cami might look like a fool
but hahah! yay!
my fingers can’t type and keep up with the beat of His heart.
i can’t walk carefully anymore.
this isn’t offensive, this is all inclusive!! if you so choose.
if I got all I have and all I need, what is there to lose??
What???
Nothing!!!
“try anyway try anyway try anyway”
i can try to fail!! I could try with all I got to fail, but I won’t be able to!! I have nothing to lose anymore!
but cami what about a back up plan?? what about holding onto just these things just these they are the essentials!! NO!!!!
EYE OF THE NEEDLE GOT NO SPACE FOR THINGS IN THE BACK TRUNK!
no back up plan is needed because His plan won’t let me down. it won’t fail. it was planned and set for me!!
there is no failure within my family no failure within this life no failure of standards if i’m living IN HIS. In His family in His life in His standards!!
He raised us to a place that isn’t dependent on what culture is sayin or a judgmental whisper under the breath.
my family is one of healing!
my “failures” from a worldly standard have been the things that have led me to my knees- the place where I found the greatest victory no soccer game could ever par up to.
God you guard all that is mine!
You are mine and I am yours!
I am who I am because I got THE I am within me!!
No more sneaking around corners to say I love God.
I love Him and He’s so cool.
Crazy in love cami coming in hot with this spillage of heart she can’t hold back.
her heart is changing her heart is molding back into what it was always meant to be.
God no longer am I saying “I can’t wait to be with you”
i’m saying “ITS SO COOL YOURE HERE. ITS SO MINDBLLWIKG AND I DONT UNDERSTAND IT, OF COURSE!! THIS PEACE SURPASSES UNDERSTANDING”
you haven’t seen me til you seen me filled with God! This isn’t whim of emotion or a spiritual high. this is just knowing God. the weight or burden of worldly expectation lifted and the lightness of being approved of and free.
Jesus i’m bouncing and jumping because I am so glad that I can just type and say these things there’s nothing holding me back anymore. no fear no nothing and man I am so happy for others to read this and that there’s nothing I have that others can’t have too.
thank you for reading!! going into month 3 in romania after a month of manual labor to make way for a new church, teen outreach and bible study, helping within the mission houses in Draganest. it has been beautiful seeing the fruit of the things we’re doing and also being okay with not seeing it! Team anthem is one of a kind + this unraveling of holy spirit in each of them makes me just cry. that I have the privilege to be here and encourage them and be friends with them.
love you all!
cami 🙂
