As most of you have seen on Facebook I just recently took a trip to Spain to see my sister who is studying abroad right now. Though I was surrounded by all the beauty of Spain, there was something holding me back from fully enjoying my trip there. I was overcome with a powerful feeling of worry and I felt extremely homesick. I had never felt this way while overseas before, so it was extremely challenging for me to completely be comfortable and enjoy my time there.
I immediately became discouraged, and I was very concerned about if I could go off for 9 months when I couldn’t go a week in a developed country with all the luxuries that went with it. I remember asking myself how i could ever do this.
After thinking it over I knew my answer: God’s overwhelming, totally consuming, all powerful love he has for me is reason enough to trust in Him and give him my whole life, and let him move me and take me past limits I never thought I would reach. I knew signing up for this trip would be extremely challenging, emotionally, physically, and even spiritually. I know that it will be hard leaving everything I know behind, and starting a new life with new people. I know that every day won’t be easy. I know that things will be difficult and some days I will want to give up, BUT I also know my Father has called me on this journey and that is reason enough to embark on it while putting all trust I have in Him and His plans.
I’ve been asked multiple times if I am scared to leave the life I’ve known and lived my whole life. That answer is simple… absolutely not. The life I have lived so far, and the experiences I’ve had do not compare to the plans and the life God has in store for me. The truth is I have yet to live my life. My life begins when I follow God’s will for me, and it will end the day that I stop. I have completely surrendered what I thought was my whole life, and traded it in for an amazing, life changing experience that I know I will never forget. I have put all my trust and faith into God’s hands, and I am excited to see where it takes me. Yes the worry of missing out on big moments with my friends and family will be quite tough, I have no doubt in my mind that this is what I am called to do. I will continue to pray for the strength to overcome future obstacles, and to remain strong in my faith. I cannot wait to see how life changing this experience will be, and I am beyond thankful to get to share it with y’all.
“Do not be shaped by this world; instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect.” Romans 12:2
