I feel just like a sailboat

I don’t know where I’m headed

But you can’t make the wind blow

From a sailboat

They tell you from the beginning to get rid of your expectations. They say it like a bad word or some horrible disease we are all inevitably going to catch. I didn’t think I had many expectations, but then, I didn’t expect it to be like this. 

I have seen the sun

I’ve felt the rain on my skin

I’ve been lost and found

But mostly I’ve been waiting

This is hard. It is full of challenges. It is sickness. It is lonely. But this is also adventure. It is laughing until your belly hurts. It is climbing so you can see for miles. It is finding sweet soul friends in unexpected places. 

Oh I’m out in the waves

And I’m hoping and praying

Please let this wind blow me home

Night after night there’s an empty horizon

My god do I feel so alone

But sometimes life

And most times I

Feel just like a sailboat

I pray for Jesus to be my home wherever I go. My desire is to make my heart so at home here in this place I find myself. How do I get there?

And I’m pretty sure I’m heard

At least I know I’m speaking

But I feel like a fool

Cause I can’t hear you listening

There are days of so much quiet. Why does it seem everyone else have so much clarity? Do you not see my frustration? Do you not see I feel so stuck here today? I am trusting in this quiet.

But I’m not giving up,

I’m gonna move on forward

I’m gonna raise my sail

God knows what I’m headed towards

I will not give up. You have called. I have answered. I can’t go on if I don’t put up my sail. I cannot go forward if I don’t give more of me over to you each day. You know the way when I do not.

Oh I’m out in the waves and I’m hoping and praying

Please let this wind blow me home

And night after night there’s an empty horizon

My god do I feel so alone

Sometimes life, and most times I feel just like a sailboat

You meet me in the waves of this life. I see your love in the smiles of the kids at the foster home this month. I see your constant provision for our squad as Aly and I succeed in logistics only by your goodness.

The only change I see

From lost or found at sea

The only difference

Is believing I’ll make it in

Even when feeling lost, I am found in you. Anything you bring me to, you will bring me through. Trusting you will teach my heart to make you my forever home. 

Oh I’m out in the waves and I’m hoping and praying

Please let this wind blow me home

And night after night there’s an empty horizon

And my god do I feel so alone

Sometimes life, and most times I feel just like a sailboat

  

Lyrics courtesy of www.benrectormusic.com