I love that we serve a God who knows exactly what we need and when we need it. I thought I needed a season of staying. of processing. of resting. And maybe I did need some of those things but they didn’t look anything like I thought they should or would.
The Lord knew I would be itching to leave after a few weeks at ‘home’. He knew I still had things to step into and things to give away. And He knew that it was through the world race (round 2) and through the role of leadership that those things would be fulfilled.
5 months ago I was finishing my race and saying yes to going again as I launched as a squad leader with B squad. And it has been the greatest joy to serve B squad in this season. I am so incredibly grateful that I have the honor of knowing each of them and for the blessing it is to have the opportunity to speak life and encouragement over them.
Squad leading has been a time of solidifying. Solidifying the things I know to be truths about God and solidifying the things I know to be truths about my identity. I’ve recognized how deeply rooted I’ve become. Walking alongside B squad has heightened my awareness of the Holy Spirit’s movement, it has taught me how to steward the influence I carry well, and I’ve learned more about what it looks like to live a life of invitation.
I have been stretched to love unconditionally. To be a vessel of the Father’s love… sometimes means to love when it’s hard and when it hurts. It means to see people never as interruptions but as divine appointments in the kingdom of God to love His people and to allow the power of God to be manifest in our lives. Sacrificial love is the most beautiful gift we have been given. And learning to give it away is one of the most life-giving things about not only this role but as an ambassador of Christ.
Squad leading has humbled me by reminding me of my humanity and it’s innate nature to be all things ungodly. It’s reminded me that in my flesh I am never enough, & my deep need for a savior. I experienced more of God’s faithfulness in my own walk but even more rewarding was rejoicing in His faithfulness in the walks of every racer on B squad.
In this season I have learned more of what it means to be a disciple making disciples and what it looks like to live life in a posture of worship, praise, and reverance for God. I can honestly say that as I seek deeper depths of the Father’s heart, I continue to fall more in love with my God. Having the oppurtunity to lead other people in to those places of depth, intimacy, and hunger has brought me so much joy.
In just a short month myself, John and Brittany will be leaving the field, leaving 3 women we are raising up in our place to lead B squad. Although my time on the field is coming to a close, I do have the oppurtunity to still be a part of their world race journey by flying back out to debriefs.
Debriefs happen 4 times a year and they are an important part of the world race. Debriefs are a time when the squad comes together to reflect on everything the Lord has done in the past couple months, it’s a sweet time of fellowship, when the squad can rest and refill for the coming months. The Lord really shows up during debriefs and I would love to be a part of the last 2.
I have said it before and I’ll say again, there are truly no words to express how grateful I am to each one of you who have invested in this journey of the Lord’s work with me. I would not be here without all of your prayers and support. So thank you times a million. I trust that where God has taken me in the past couple of years has been nothing less than His plan and I trust that this is all still part of His plan for me. I only need $2,890 to be fully funded to finish out this year with B squad, would you pray and consider donating to help get me there?
