Some days, most days actually, I can’t believe my life is real. like today for example: I’m sitting in the South Africa airport…the one I arrived at just last week from Guatemala. And I’m waiting to board a plane to Cambodia.
My life with the Lord is amazing no doubt. Traveling the globe; hitting up 3 continents in 2 weeks that’s pretty ridiculous too. I’m thankful every morning that I get to wake up and breath in new cultures.
That’s where the joy is right? When we rise in the morning it’s new for us, there to meet us and greet us and like an usher at a wedding. Welcoming people into a sacred space of covenant, a place where joy frequently explodes in fullness.
This has been so crucial for me in this chapter of life. Because man, as incredible as trotting around this world is, and getting to love more and more of the Fathers’ children…it can be exhausting. In every regard. Physically, those time zone changes are no joke. Spiritually, pouring into 60 plus people this year is a lot. The only way to do it rightly is to operate from overflow: to be seeking seeking seeking the the face of the father, whose the fountain of living water. Emotionally, to give your heart completely and to invest so so deeply in people sometimes…well sometimes it hurts. You see the unbelievable potential God has put in his sons and daughters and you so desperately want them to see it and receive it. Fighting for people is the most rewarding yet heart breaking honor I’ve ever had.
I love it though. The traveling, the constant emptying of myself that others might know Jesus better and be like Jesus more. I love feeling the Fathers deep compassion for people and sharing it as often as He leads.
My prayer in this season is from Pslam 27:4
“One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple”
Amongst the chaos and constant transition my hearts cry is to, in every moment,dwell in the presence of the Holy one. To gaze upon His beauty finding peace for my heart and joy for my spirit.
“The Lord is my refuge, my place of quiet retreat. I will wait on His word to refresh my soul” Psalm 119:114
Lord thank you that you fill me to spill me. And you truly do spill me. Thank you that you use me beyond every capability that I have so that I have to find you in the morning through the evening. Thank you that when I’m empty, you still have more. God continue to pour me out and fill me up, so that my life may be a display not of myself or my works but your character, your power, and your glory.
I want more Jesus.
Even when I’m tired, even when I’m weary, give me more.
