Hey this week for my blog I asked my mom to guest blog for me. I hope y’all enjoy!
Proverbs 3:5-6 says:
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
I know that verse well. I can recite it with ease. I smile and nod when I hear someone reference it. I even have shared it with others to remind them to trust God.
But this is often my dialogue with God:
Do you trust Me?
“YES, of course I do! Just let me take care of this one thing, first…”
I might say with confidence “I trust God!” In my heart, though, I often want things to go MY way. I will try to take back control, thinking I have the ability to change a situation to my liking. But you know what? Things still fall apart. Things still don’t go according to my plan. Things still don’t look the way I want them to. And you know what else? I’ve missed fully experiencing His presence with me since I have spent so much time trying to figure it out on my own or worry about what’s going to happen.
I actually questioned Caleb’s decision to do this Gap Year when he first brought it up in the Spring and yet, now I can’t imagine him doing anything else. I have such peace knowing he is exactly where God wants him to be. Watching Caleb take this journey of faith has been a great reminder that the world is a much bigger place than simply where I am standing. It’s encouraged me take my own faith journey: to try not to focus on my own little world and open my eyes to everyone and everything going on around me. To realize things don’t have to be safe and comfortable and I don’t need to be afraid when they are not. God has much bigger plans for me than to watch me continue to try to grab control of my life and try to make things go my way. He wants me to surrender to Him and to trust His ways…He wants me to make Him the KING of my life.
No matter how many times I take this path of trying things on my own, He is there waiting for me to trust Him with the details of my everyday life. He doesn’t give up on me, even after I’ve turned Him away and think I have a better solution. He is patiently waiting for me to surrender my heart to Him and remember His goodness to me. He is longing for me to find my joy in Him and NOT in my circumstances. His love for me is unchanging and constant. My God is trustworthy, even when I have chosen not to trust Him.
So I am learning. Learning to seek Him first and not trying to solve my problems on my own. Learning to remind myself of His character and remembering He will never fail me. Learning that His ways may not be my ways, but they are better than I could ever imagine. Learning to let Him rule in my life. Learning to honestly say, “Jesus is my Savior AND He is also my King.”
Isaiah 55:8-9
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
