I’m not going to sugar coat anything… Life isn’t the best right now. I am lonely, I am constantly exhausted, and I have no set plans on where I am going to live starting in a couple weeks. Sounds like fun right?! Life is hectic, and I’m sure everyone who is reading this relates in some way… That’s just how life goes.
I am not saying this to throw myself a pity party, or get anyone else’s pity points. I am stating this because I have recently found so much value in being open and authentic. So here it is, me being as open and authentic as I can be. After having a hectic season with work, and things finally starting to slow down, it has allowed me to have a little more time for myself again, being both a blessing and a curse. Having grown up with 6 older siblings then moving to a college campus, my life has consisted of always having someone around (Which will come in handy while being on the race). Fast forward to now. I have a job that is pretty independent, an apartment with one other person who is never home at the same time as me, and I live thousands of miles away from my family. Talk about a lifestyle change. I have never spent so much time by myself, but I have also never learned so much about myself.
Yeah, I am lonely because of this, BUT if it weren’t for this time alone I would never have figured out what it means to truly have a secret place with Jesus.
Yeah, my mind is filled with worry about all of the changes that are about to come, BUT that doesn’t mean I haven’t learned to trust God with all of these changes.
Yeah, as of right now I have nowhere to live in Arizona in a few weeks, BUT that doesn’t mean that God isn’t going to pave a path before me showing exactly where I need to be.
One of the great parts about having Jesus as my Savior is that I can simply let it all go. All of my loneliness, I can let it go. All of my worry, I can let it go. My living situation, I can let it go. I have the opportunity to be the person that says, “The storm came, and the storm went and I never moved because fear was no match for your love.” It’s just a matter of the response that I have.
So this is my response. I am choosing to give it all up. It won’t be easy, but ever since I have been accepted to be apart of the world race nothing has been easy. Life isn’t the best, but we have the choice to wake up everyday and control what we are going to give up. Are you going to try to do it yourself? Or are you going to rely on the maker of the universe to lend you a helping hand?
So that is my challenge to you as well… I would be more than happy to have each and every one of you walk alongside me in this journey of letting it go!
With that being said, I am officially 1/4 of the way there! I could not be more thankful for those of you who have already supported me in this adventure! But I still have a long way to go so, if you feel led, any and every donation helps a tremendous amount!
Thank you!
