Blog part two- i had to post this again without editing because of limited internet. but that will change.
So here we go.
This one is a bit more refined, yet equally honest.
I kind of want to just share a thought with you.
It’s the idea of a quilt.
(now most of this is speculation because I have never made a
quilt, but I am not a complete idiot, so we’ll see what happened)
A quilt in its fanciest form has intricate work. It has beauty and interesting
designs. But when you zoom
into the quilt, you can see that each great design is made up of just ordinary
string or patches. The
closer you look, the less “remarkable” each thing is.
I like to consider those “non-remarkable” moments days in my life.
Each day is really nothing special. It’s a chance to be a green
string, a red string, or maybe a really busy day you get to be both colors.
Or maybe there are days when you feel like you are doing the
same thing over and over and nothing is really special.
Or maybe there are days when you feel like your whole world
is crashing down, but God in his infinite wisdome and grace doesn’t just let that
happen once, but it happens time and time again.
Its like you being torn apart day in and day out. Over and
over again until you are no longer just “hanging on” but you are literally
destroyed and lifeless.
If you look in that moment, life sucks. You can yell and scream at God (which
ironically you never see people punished by God for being honest before
him) but that would be us basing
out limited feelings about our own limited knowledge. It isn’t until you take a step back before you begin to see the
whole picture.
I AM NOT IN THE WHOLE PICTURE STAGE YET.
But I am passed the yelling and screaming moment. And if it upset anyone, than I am sorry
for real.
But here is the point. In our pain and discomfort, I have a
trust (I don’t always live by it, but I do believe it) that God is in control.
Yes that string that is being torn apart is upset at whats
happening, but if you can get over the fact that you are being “destroyed” for
just one minute. If you can step
back and se ethe “creators” intentions, than you might just find out that you
aren’t being destroyed, but you are actually being taken from just an ordinary
string, and becoming a decorative tassel.
A thing of beauty and uniqueness.
I don’t know if this makes sense.
Some day I will write for you guys and not for me, but for
now I am thinking this can best explain whats going on in my life.
I think iam a tassel.
=)
Who knows
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so this is the last blog that is going to be “spur of the moment”
But i wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone for following the blogs. And i love you all, and GOD IS GOOD.
