Okay so it wasn’t on purpose, but I’m glad it happened. Let me explain –
in the busyness of packing up my bags and leaving I accidentally left my Bible in my car. Whoops. I was super bummed when I found out it didn’t make it in my pack. I love MY Bible – it has all of my notes from the last 5 years and is well used and loved. I rely heavily on those old notes and things I have written. Also.. if I am being honest, I really like the way my Bible looks because if you flipped through it you would think that I’m like a super Christian or something lol – yeah I know, that is super vain and surface level, but I’m just being honest here. It looks like I am very intimate with the Lord with all my beautiful notes, underlines, and annotations. I know it sounds dumb and like need hella refinement in that area, and both are correct.
Not having my Bible really started to stress me out at Launch. I know there are all those Bible apps and stuff, but I prefer the physical paper Bible. Thanks to Amazon Prime I was able to order a new one and have it delivered to me before we left. But, it has none of my words in it. It only has God’s words in it. (duh, Cait)
At Launch we had a teaching that touched on abandonment and it hit me hard in regards to this whole “leaving my Bible” fiasco that I was battling. It was by His grace that He was stripping me of my reliance and connection I had to my Bible and my notes this year.
I don’t need to rely on my words to get through this next year, I need to rely on His words. Yeah, sure I probably have some helpful notes and key verses underlined for easy access, but I don’t need my dead words, I need His living words. His word never returns void. There is always something new to be read and experienced. I am so so thankful that His word is active and alive and that I don’t need my notes to understand His words – all I need is the Bible and Holy Spirit. I don’t think it was by accident that I forgot my Bible. I think that the Lord allowed me to leave it to strip me of my comfort of having my notes and my desire to be perceived by others as “knowledgable or holy” or whatever the heck I was striving for.
Since leaving in January I have seen the fruit of pressing in to His words. Scripture continues to come alive. His words are SO sweet. I am having new understandings and new revelations of scripture as I abide and dive deeper with Him. I am hungry for His words. I am seeing more of God’s character and heart than I ever have before. I am understanding the invitation of partnership and the narrative of His story in new and exciting ways. Not having “my” Bible on the Race has truly pushed me into a deeper level of intimacy with Yahweh and I am grateful for that!
note to future Racers: you should 100% bring a Bible lol
