On the second day of a three-day fast God called me to stay inside. I spent the day in the apartment and prayed. I ended up dancing around the family room to Lifehouse’s Hanging by a Moment. This was the theme for my time in China…
Desperate for changing
I not satisfied with being stationary in my faith. Being around my teammates and local missionaries challenge me daily to follow after His love and leading. And His love does change me. I still simply think that I’m on this trip to become a better person.
Starving for truth
As I was walking through and praying for the people in the Buddhist mosque we visited one day it made me think of searching. The people of this world that are searching for truth in so many things other than the Truth. Well, I know it and I’m still starving for more of it. Thank the Lord that He is the Living Water that never runs dry.
I’m closer to where I started
He’s taking me back. Back to the roots. Back to the basics. Back to Him. Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. Thankfully, on my knees I am thankful, God is taking away every stereotyped and religious reaction within me. He’s bringing my back to His heart ’cause it’s all about Him.
Chasing after You
I want Christ more than anything else. Future plans, relationships, locations, ministries…it’ll mean nothing if not first and strongly focused on Christ. Not Him as a symbol or a good luck charm but Him. I want to know Him.
I’m falling even more in love with You
I love saying this out loud! As I know Him more I fall more in love with Him. It happens with intimacy. Life with Jesus makes me excited and joyful. I smile with each confirmation of the passion I live with – going all in, falling even more in love with You.
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
How well can you embrace someone if your arms are loaded with bags and bags of stuff? Carrying around unnecessary baggage? My past, my fears, any and all relationships good and bad, religion, pride, appearance, perfectionism, my future plans and goals, my rights, independence…all too much. I had to let it go.
I’m standing here until You make me move
Like the day that God just told me to stay in the apartment and led me to pray for all my teammates; He taught me discipline and patience. He guides each step for a reason. I walk without His direction and end up confused and in the dark. I don’t always know where or why He leads but this is where I become stubbornly His. I’m not moving unless it’s towards Christ for His glory.
I’m hanging by a moment here with You
Each moment. Thank You, Lord! When You kept us up all night to stay in prayer. When You led us to dinner with Chinese women who didn’t speak except through Your Word. When You brought us snow. When You woke me up every morning so I could spend the day with You.
Forgetting all I’m lacking
I’m not the smartest or funniest person you’ll ever meet. I don’t mind avoiding the spotlight. I’ve given up the American dream long ago. But I’m hopeful as I live in the truth that it is through my weakness He is strong.
Completely incomplete
I want to boast and recognize how fully empty and alone I am without Him. I can’t answer the question of who I’d be without Him ’cause I’d be nothing.
I’ll take your invitation
In the beginning was the Word. He invites us and I’m jumping on it. “Hey, Cait, will you come and be with Me?” Yes, yes! It’s an invitation for us all, what’s your response?
You take all of me now…
And He’ll take all of me. The dirt, the scum, the secrets. He’ll pour His light on the mystery of me and even let me figure out the parts that I don’t reveal. He’s the forgiving Father that receives my repentant heart. He fixes and heals and loves unconditionally. He wants His daughter back fully.
I’m falling even more in love with You
Letting go of all I’ve held onto
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with You
I’m living for the only thing I know
I will only love for this One I know for sure. Above anything here on earth that will change, be temporary, soon be irrelevant…it fades away like cheap toilet paper. (As a Racer I know these things.) But He was, is, and always will be.
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
I’m running and not walking because I want to be with Jesus that badly. And I don’t know exactly where He’s taking me, but I do know Him and know that He is perfectly trustworthy. Dazed and confused most times – He is my compass and guide.
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Again, He doesn’t make sense the way I expect things to make sense. Christ is the mystery that I’m captivated by. I dive in faith and full hope that nothing is better. He’s my best. My only.
Just hanging by a moment here with You
When You say You love me. When You say You’re going to do something big with my life. When You lead me through the mountains of China in the dark of night, When You bring Your smiling people around me. When You enable me to pray without ceasing.
Just hanging by a moment here with You
When You lead us through customs. When You travel beside us and keep us safe. When You bring Your people around us for prayer. When You call us to things that are impossible on our own.
Hanging by a moment here with You
When You lead my birthday to celebrate Your great work in the nations. When You provide the warmth and laughter of friends. When You take me through Your Word for comfort and conviction. When You open my mind to the newness of Your love.
Hanging by a moment here with You
When You lead me in prayer and love to recklessly share my heart and life to friends and family and the world in hope and faith that they may know You just that much more.
