It feels like just yesterday that I
was boarding a plane on my way to Georgia for training camp. Nervous excitement filling every ounce
of my being, wondering if I was really ready for what I had signed up for. I
can still feel the awkward self-conscious conversations I had while in the
airport feeling the weight of what we all were on the very edge of stepping into. I vividly recall being so overwhelmed
with the presence of God during our first session of worship that all I could
do was weep with tears of joy, gratitude, and thankfulness at the foot of the
cross. Over and over again I would
think, “I can’t believe that this is my life!� Freedom was discovered, healing began, relationships were
made, but more than anything I met my God that week in a more intimate way than
I ever had in my life.
Exactly 2 years later from those
first life-changing moments I am preparing for training camp again (Oct 14-23). Yet this time I am stepping into a new
role, a role of leadership and encouragement. A role of impartation and vision casting. A role of speaking life and loving
relentlessly. I am no longer the
scared girl hoping I can just make it though the week before they find out I am
flawed and imperfect, that maybe I’m not holy enough to be a missionary. I am no longer the girl who is so wrapped
up in people pleasing and what others will think that she can’t take bold steps
or say the things the Lord leads her to.
I am no longer the girl who knows in her head that God loves her, but in
her heart feels like that idea is a distant fantasy that only applies to
others.
The Race, this time around, will
certainly look different as an alumni and squad leader. I am so excited, that I could jump out
of my skin thinking of the ways God is going to meet and change this crazy
group of Christ followers this next week at training camp and throughout this
next year. My heart is beating out of my chest at the thought of watching them
come alive. Seeing them discover
who God created them to be and the gifts they have. Together, glorifying the Lord and bringing the Gospel to the
nations. Encouraging them to pray
boldly, declare scripture, and root their very being in God. Asking them to RISK the scary things
like failure, vulnerability, openness, surrender, and boldness. Walking alongside of them and loving in
the midst of brokenness as they wrestle though their mess. Challenging them to go deeper with the
Lord than they ever have before.
I am once again packing my pack,
busting out my sleeping bag and tent, and heading to Georgia. The excitement is uncontainable and
anticipation is thick. This next
week the Lord will move, He will change lives and shape hearts. The beauty is; this is only the
beginning. I am once again grateful that this is my life. Once again overwhelmed by His good
plans for me. Once again humbled
that the Lord has called ME, imperfect as ever. Once again simply blessed…
Can I ask one thing of you? Would you pray for our Squad? Pray for open hearts to let the Lord
move, for total abandonment. Pray
for wisdom for the staff and leadership.
Pray for me as I step into this new season of leadership. Pray that we can praise and worship the
Lord with all we have this next week. Pray for the lives all over the world that will be changed though Christ because of the incredible group I get to meet in just 3 days.
If you feel led or would like to
partner with me in my calling to awaken a generation to Christ, I would LOVE to
talk with you. PLEASE email me and I would be happy to share more of my
heart. If you would like to give
financially you can do so by clicking the support me button on the left side of
the screen. Thanks for walking
this journey with me!
