For years i've prayed that The Lord would send me to the nations. I've dreamt of being in orphanges holding little babies, singing prophetically over them. Sleeping in the slums of different countries, having heart to hearts with the grandma who has taken in 10 children, telling the ones who feel forgotten that they have not been forgotten & showing them through my actions. Dreaming of giving my life to countries ive never been to, & serving people ive have yet to meet. For so long ive dreamt of these things so now knowing they will all be my reality here very shortly brings up so many emotions.
Excited
Nervous
Anxious
Intense love for the Father
Is this really happening? I must be dreaming
Will it be all that i've dreamt of?
A few months back this sweet old man gave me a prophetic word, He said, "Expect marvelous things. Expect to be a blessing to the whole world. Your in for a roller coaster ride with The Lord, one that you wont be able to get off of," then he made it very clear he was glad it wasnt him :). I wasn't exactly sure what He meant by that, so I put the word on the shelf just waiting for the Lord to show me what He meant. Now I know! This coming year is going to be an intense roller coaster ride, I mean im going to 11 countries! But, even before I step foot on the plane to another country, the roller coaster ride has begun. How you ask? With my emotions & thoughts, & I dont think its simply because im a girl :). When your dreams are knocking on your door I promise you, your heart will feel a ton of emotions. All in one days period I will feel all of the emotions I listed above. Excited because im about to go on the most wild adventure! Nervous because I am going to be pulled out of every comfort I know & away from everyone I love. Anxious because I want it NOW. ha! Intense love for Abba, well because He is worthy of it & has given me the best gift ever! Telling myself I must be dreaming because it seems way too good to be true. Then the thought of will it be all that I've dreamt of?
When that last question comes, which is something I believe a lot of us ask ourselves at one point in our lives, Papa reminds of who He is & what He ask of us. He is the creator of all that I know. The waters that cover the earth, the trees, the air that we breathe, & every person we come in contact with. This is something we all know, but sometimes its the one thing we forget. When one creates something, they know their creation really well. Imagine you painted a masterpiece & someone asked you what paint you used, what specific brushes you used, what colors went first & which ones you mixed, etc. You would know the answer to every question then some, because its your masterpiece. This is how Papa is with us, He knows the ins & outs of who we are. He knows how He created us to think, what our love language is, our blood type, what makes our heart sing, & He knows the very desires/dreams of our heart. He knows how much we want them, He knows what we day dream about, He knows when our hearts our broken because our dreams seem unattainable, & He knows how we feel once our dreams are in reach. Nothing we do, say, or think is a surprise to Him, He knew what He was getting into when he created us. Remember He is the creator! Our dreams are no surprise to him, after all He placed them within us. So what better place for our dreams to be, then in the hands of the creator? He ask us to lay our life at his feet, to give of ourselves whole heartedly, which means laying our dreams at his feet. Telling Him He is worthy to have them, to bring them to life if He desires, or to put them on the shelf if He desires. So that we may learn to trust Him with our dreams, trust that He will bring them about in His perfect timing or change our heart, & trust that He wont let us down. Our dreams are safe in His hands, He is the ultimate dreamer after all. He dreamt up the world plus every person in it, hows that for a dream? 🙂
So when all these emotions come, & I feel like I'm about to loose it, I will run to the one who holds my heart. The one who wont let me down. The one who loves to meet the desires of our heart, & go beyond what I could have ever imagined. I will run to Jesus, the one who has won my heart. My rest is found in Him. His love covers over all my crazy emotions, praise Jesus! So though the roller coaster ride has begun, I can sit in the hands of my beloved & marvel at his handy work. After all, my dreams are His.
