My story is no more important than yours just because I’m serving around the world. God asks something different from all of us but that doesn’t take away from our worth.
One of my favorite parts of the race has been listening to what others are walking through and being there for them through it. God put it on my heart to share some of my friend’s stories with you from America.
Everything we’re walking through has a purpose. God is guiding us through all seasons. He has conquered all that is behind you and gone before you for what’s to come. Trust in Him every day and ask what he has in store for you when you depend on him more. He wants you to say Yes to Him every day.
For the last couple of years, I have struggled with depression and anxiety. I have not been afraid to open up about my struggle in hopes to reach others who also struggle and let them know they are not alone. Although, this is a whole other story entirely. For right now I am going to tell you about an experience I had a couple of weeks ago. Now, in order for me to tell you my story, I feel like I should give you a little background information.
For those of you who do not understand what is like to struggle with depression or anxiety, I am going to try to explain it in the simplest way possible. Usually, my anxiety and depression will correlate with each other and make those couple of days or weeks really bad for me. All I want to do is lay in bed when I am home or be constantly busy when I’m at work so I don’t have to worry about everything going on. Which my job position was not. Doing the simplest things at home, like changing a diaper, can be a huge struggle for me.
Well, a couple of weeks ago I had been having a rough time for about a month stretch. I was really struggling financially and trying to get a new position at work that would bring in more money or looking for a new job altogether. I knew I was not being my best self for my daughter or my family. During this time I was constantly praying, hoping for answers on what I should do. I had finally made the decision to go see a doctor. The doctor prescribed me a different medication to try. She had told me the medication would take about a week before I would start to notice a change, but I knew the next day that it was going to work. This is where a good part of my story starts.
The morning after my doctor’s appointment I had woken up and hopped in the shower for my work day ahead. I, like your average female, like to take showers with the water burning your skin. Per usual this causes my mirror to fog up. As I was stepping out of the shower I had noticed a weird formation on my mirror. As I stared at it a little bit longer I started to see a woman who was bowing her head and had her hands folded like she was praying. It was then when I heard a voice in my head say, “Everything is going to be okay.” I knew it was God answering my prayers. I stood there for about 5 minutes doing nothing and just taking it all in. I had started crying at that point because I knew in fact that everything was going to be okay and I was going to get through this. Even now as I am writing this I still get emotional. And let me tell you, from that point on things started to look up for me. I was able to actually clean my house and keep it that way. Which might seem like an easy task, but this was huge for me. Later that week I had also found out I had gotten a promotion at work!
Now the point of my story is to not to get pity from you or to boast about my new position but to tell you the wonderful way God has impacted me recently. God taught me to keep faith in His process. In the end, He will always pull through, He is always there for you and listening even when you don’t think He is. So the point of my story is to hopefully help you not to lose faith. My mom always told me, “God works in mysterious ways” and every time she said this I would roll my eyes. Now I am saying it to you. Trust what God is doing, have faith that he does have a plan for you because God does work in mysterious ways.
Isaiah 41:10
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
